My Parents Went About it Another Way
And at the same time I’m thinking about writing fiction or living it
Moonlighting my likeness in lottery tickets
What to disclose eh?
Every form is a challenge
Each time a treat
Now how looks go
Not like a cyndi lauper song time after time
Find that community or build it
Bad choice broccoli
It’s not to say what happened or didn’t happen it’s just we’re theory
A neglected package never been touched
Working some different way
You’re seeing so many things only you can see
When did you change the channel?
We want the most colourful garden
You make me think about some things
Fractured fairytales
We had children (inner) all along we just went taking care of them
Settled differently, settled differences
For us the world is too much
The strange order of things
Slow Roller
Time ticker, time taker
Tasting time
Compliance
A paradoxical intention
a paradoxical wish
My moon is all over this
Allowing the unconscious to speak
Some shitty Willy Nelson
and There aren’t any leftovers
a mutual goodbye, a remorseful buy
I can only say I’m seasonal
Playing in the same sandbox
the bun is out is out of the oven
Timber!


Its a Different Time to be Alive
Refuting fading
Learn to trust at your own expense
You could be living life inside out
Rolling up without a plan
You know what you say to yourself
As many times as it takes to get it through your thick skull
Broaden the implications
A slippery slope
Stand up or sit down the ground is firm enough
A for the sake of the community sort of guy
Can’t really be considered a terrible idea
An action packed box
Whatever you got left
Your plan is to support the kid (in you)
Create a work back
Punctuated with whatever the case may be
your Bailiwick
Frequency has resonance but I’m not going to repeat those words
Let’s hope I don’t remember that tmrw
I’m not get iced that easily, not falling for that one
I don’t want go down like that
Gravity is only one of the things we feel
Not exactly having a renaissance

“If this is so interesting to you, what is it? - Carroll Dunham

Geoffrey Hill
Dave Cunliffe
Spike Hawkins
Adrian Henri
Gael Turnbull

Many Things Become Apparent
It’s the way they sat down
Sky blue tall grass
If you can’t face my feelings you can’t face me
I am the fiction
Unpacking some bright ideas
A lot of us grew up with different tv shows
Scholarly and impersonal
You can really get into that world sometimes
A long way from trying
Language gambits
All those people coming at you
The Walmarts are mopping the floor with us
You should only be so proud of yourself
A big piece of the puzzle
An interstellar conversation
Flawed subjectivity
The shortcuts you take
How earth shattering that philosophy you are
Literally an infinity mirror
Followers
Raccoons thinking all day about what garbage they’re gonna eat
Hidden
reduced to a punchline
A heavy page
a note to self indulgence

When the Moon Comes Out at Night
All to just be able to say your were right
Turnover
Put it altogether and make things click
Conversations with Dogs
Not all parties are delighted to be here
They used the blocks differently in class
If you only knew how much I cried at the end of the film
You getting the impression something impt will be said
Full of all that stuff
The sketchiest verdict heard
Binge watching some show, binge shopping to go
The act perhaps isn’t done
I’d like to get lost in the world again, the busy streets of Budapest
Seeing all the falsities with the niceties draped on
Summersaulting love, salted
I love popcorn too
There’s chaos in the bag
Makes it all the more true
It’s always that debate
Six figure contract
Where’s my six figure contract?
Selling out for money
Haptic Wake - Casey May McGuire
At the heart of the matter
A coherent reading of the proceedings

The language of Silence
It’s distinctive because it’s Phoenician
Pick up for at least a year
Small to large
Sometimes you can’t play the role of that emotion
A lot of thinking to do
Loyalty and obedience
Chewing on rags
Stones to pick
Inability to do everything, Ability to do nothing
Everything is damp in the park
The trees are naked
Someone’s presenting a contrast
Loading bags of shit
A toddler screams nooo
Advancing and retreating cyclically
Corduroy
Pebbles in a jar
It says enough that you’re showing up
Turned Around
Don’t let things slide out of your context
I was ready to do some living
But then you realize the barriers to it
Go down hill slower
Improve your time
It’s nice to know yourself
fascinated with the fact that I’m around
I think that’s how it goes
Life
Getting lost in one thing
Living in brackets
A living implication

The Big Coincidences and Small Coincidences
It always starts this way
I can be boring with you
Until you don’t see it that way anymore
then you just don’t care anymore
Some things you gotta tackle solo
Stay on your feet
You actually can’t explain why anyone is there or anyone is gone
You really have to lean into that part of it
Inexorable
Curtains
it will tell you something
At least I’ve put that record on
That’s the part I got wrong
Both of them were wearing blue toques..
Her hands are speaking, it looks like he’s not really eating
It would have worked out for them if they had met in their twenties
I can say that to myself now
The weight of it all
imagine the chances
look at the changes

You Can Tell by the Cadence
Practical Matters
Nothing I haven’t faced before
starting again
You couldn’t possibly know everything
changes need to happen
to understand…
maintain flow
A big fat heavy sigh
Don’t reach for words
Maybe that’s it
Utter love
Workin thru the changes
speak slowly
lower the cadence


It’s hard one way or another
It doesn’t make sense but I get it
Who you been and who your really are
being Pet like dog just because
They show up at the same time
Freedom calls
Its torture
A focal point in and out of sleep
It might only be a word that puts you there
You know when someone is playing with different chips
Insane but accessible
Maniacally meticulous
Letting it wind down
The language of the universe
Waiting for the Streetcar
Dystopian bus stops and derelict developments
haven’t noticed a thing
the word can't
It’s this thing that existed for a moment in your life
Oh how a puppy grows



Like Magic
Roadkill
The other side of the stream
Duality, multiplicity AND Vicissitudes
There's a lot of people alive out there
Spirit instruments
Madeline Sonik
In a put me in coach sort of mood
battlING a ghost
Emotional trap doors
It’s hard one way or another
Don’t quote your crayon
Barbed Wire Bibliomancy

By chance
Dad in the Kitchen of old house
Asking if I’m still with N
Charging the speaker for Rousseau at the gas station
Ice rink performance like Clairlea
Stroll through
Bumping into Sean in Kensington
And forgetting my Konica camera
They were getting ready for the live taping dressed up
Masquerading caged dragon of a new year
I crossed the street because there was more humanity
Live stream of the zeitgeist
Feeling very "coach put me in"
waiting to hear the applause
Knowledge from those episodes
Downtown wintering
Compensatory Consuming
Concerning Loss
Words along the journey
A grasp of life, a gripe
This is resistance training
fathomably, unfathomable or not

In Reverse
No Anniversaries
A dumpy sale
A yard sale
Parked there for good luck
They brought the whole winter
Can’t possibly be a person
Going off a jimmy cliff on a reggae night
That’s the son Of a bitch of it, it’s all so notting hill
It’s almost like it never happened
That is the deck of time
Waiting for the night to envelope
Tomorrow is a thousand days later
Take another big gulp
there’ll be more of that tmrw
go for a run
in reverse

Happen
Digging your own grave at blue jay games before you know it
Good messy
vacation in tulum doom chasers
Theosophy
Landscape paintings of small feelings
engravings
Rarely people
Separate lives
Shapes and numbers knocking
Eating at the table
Sculpture strolling through a gallery
Light leak auras
Reoccurring characters
Ron Carter Piccolo
Portraits
Hung up, fed up
Negatives multiple exposures
Sketches, visions
Drawing along pen on paper
Tracing Hearts racing
Waves along the way
Mortal wild sunflowers
Controlling Motivations
Right between seats in the middle
Piles of daylight
Trickster bunnies
Pyramids
they’re all here
Eros Ramazotti
You’re memorable
Memberships canceled
Long term open to short, short term open to longer
I wish I didn’t have to take myself so seriously but there’s catching up to do
They have a lot to deal with they were closer to it REALLY happening and are closer to it ending
A Live Archive
Ability to write and self-edit 1,500 words per day
Persuasions
Now we have a sequence of events
Consistency of obsessions
finissage
femmemoiselle
cadavre exquis
Veve
A lot of us shedding those guts
After all these years people are still people; dissolving in the microwave.
A penny serenade with a punctuation mark at the end
Some ppl speak like the market; only speculation
It’s not like it wasn’t supposed to happen; it did then
Cutting through the universe
All the same it’s all work
Just like that time lapse video of a rose growing
Bare + Blurry
Maybe things were never in focus
That’s January for you




Many Things
I wake up a where am I wolf
Watching my vice
Pregnant with poem
Harangues
A nicki minaj song
and Anyone hearing it for the first time would say bravo
Past the point of the incident
A lucky strike smoked in army
A question to ask yourself
When does the baby arrive?
are you a Heartless Romantic?
Memories are so distinct
Keep thinking
what attitude are you awake with
An earthquake, a tidal wave, a natural disaster, this is a way to start the day; for breakfast
a few less seconds of stress make a difference
downloaded nature from a park
take stock
surrender to the morning
and many many things


Elapsed
Leap of faith want to take
Risk is relative
Direction of the stream
The icy ocean asking you in like a water bed at midnight
Further to your point
Police state
Another take
It happens everyday
The bottom of the hill is just as good as the top, reliever you’re a rocki
Peaks and and valleys
win95.exe
Moral envy
Parallels
Keep your mouth busy
Sometimes the feeling is further out
then it just get closer
Black Silhouettes
Delinquent Stakeholders
Shorter Lifecycles
Pay As You Go: xoxoxox
a nondotcom
disseminating content
you know what the results will be

the Chapters
le bon voyage et le mal de tête
Fasting like ghandi
Trusting before we’ve even met
Expecting telepathy
Spilling guts
Not surprisingly a ghosting
Good to know you’re dreaming
You kinda gotta see everyone in order to Be
Try not to hold onto too much of one era
Getting in order, in order to be seen
Everyone loves DEVANDRA!
American Graffitti
a Touch of Evil
The words are nothing without experience
Use the silence
mutter something
Inconsolable
something uncontrollable
the Internal compass will navigate to the right place, a map for the next chapter
BODY AND SPIRIT
Beginning and end Capacity, stakes gift
We all have a different story
the stills - LOGIC WILL BREAK YOUR HEART
SHORT TERM HEARTACHE
GOOD MISTAKES
Lessons

Review the Plot
Reaching for hands in a hands off situation
I’ve been trying to avoid the game my whole life it seems
Sharing oneself (w/many)
Self cento poetry
Attention to process
Improbable Images
Some roads may not take you where you think. Like our thoughts, books may not either....
Some of these houses look like fisher price
Someone has to record this

Until You Slow Down
Corkscrew to the ground
Parataxis
Emotion, reason, authority
deus ex machina
Whatever it was was bad for the lungs, u just had to suck it up
A warm piece of the sidewalk
somnambulistic surrealism
Bedroom poetry
Brass Tacks
Gushing the real stuff
Grounded acquiescence, resigned to what we’ve been reduced to
The weight of the blanket statements puts you right to bed-zombies

You Never Really Know How Fast You’re Going
Until you speed up
Dry cracked and broken
Another one Down the shoot, must have got lost taking the longer route
The mud is hard to walk in because it’s like quicksand or frozen with another person’s footprints, your shadow in everyone else
It all happens very fast
Sweeping a rug
Return written all over it
Define published
Forming your You
A leaf in a bin, what has been
A world of trouble
A potentially stressful situation u can’t get out of
Relief is a flimsy idiot
Remember the note you found on the ground
It’s theory and practice on a fight to the death
Shitbox job, after 8, hard boiled egg solo dinner date
You can’t always go in fast forward
That shits gonna go up in smoke
Billowing
Other Peoples Business
Don’t be going in both directions at once
Increments
The small things HAVE added up


Taking it Day by Day
Flimsy in form or fact an ear to ear thoughtless indecisive unconscious dancing act
Hopelessly pedantic, charmingly unromantic
The leaves haven’t decomposed
Perishable items
Past season
Closed windows
A circular journal
A perpetual poem
Guess what the wind has to say
Artificial intelligence, realistic mistakes
A labyrinth
You kinda know what that’ll be like
Touched mania
Deep and shallow patient zeroes, lines of isolation sentences of persuasion
Observations
You’ve only got so much time to work on things
Couch surfing
Pulling a Peeler
All the ancillary work
The Things People Say
wait until it's quiet enough to drop the pin



Every Moment
The seasons breathes a sigh of relief
Introspection and Congeniality
Shared reality
Who’s the beneficiary of your bad luck?
Arbor daze as tree’s gaze, who the rattlesnake shaking your cage?
/I’ve actually never been to a funeral/
Mother Nature made a choice
Snow made the decision
Cold made the incision
Synchronicity
Be sure to complete your Sign-out forms
When you’re a runner you’re always on the brink
Jazz leaves a lot of margin for error
Don’t check out too early
It get closer and closer, not chronologically;
a deadly combination, all the good weapons
Looking at my footprints in the snow; went as beautifully as they went
Incessantly Hitting refresh


Feels Like a Dream
8am sundown
Falling asleep from waking up
A sick note home to the office for obvious reasons
Takeout for breakfast again
Watching the first season of friends dissolve
Someone is shaving grass with their snowblower inside
And the kids are off to work again skipping dinner, but the influencers have packaged their lunch for social media
They speak in antonyms and I eat synonym cereal
I guess this isn’t real
Long day ahead with a shred of mental capacity
Hypnagogic, Hypnagogia
Case sensitive
Something happens everyday
this is not a dull plot
continue writing tomorrow
Ask a better question
Don’t get distracted
You can make the puzzle easier by moving one just one part



I Don’t Know
What’s the point of the pretence? can’t we live in the present tense
I don’t want anything
I am not part of a movement, I am movement; a current occurring a force, a friend and a foe, a necessary heart beating unnecessary evil, a torch that illuminates, these words forming a rock, the foundation of my being
In some sense it already is
It starts shaking from deep inside
In all other cases your stupid “life goes on"
How can it be that vapid, rapid, banal
It’s so finite, yet infinite
Leave something durable behind, run out of breath trying
write down your grievances. Nobody will get to them later but at least you’ll have piece of mind
u Can u see the deadline now
Deer by the Stream
Kinda blindly doing this dream
Coasting in an arboretum
More or less meandering
Filled with weeping willows
A day later my father is dead
A year later he shows up in my head
Ecclesiastically laughing at the whole thing congregation
it’s alright my dad says
This trail is a rite of passage
Almost the same weather
Maybe I’m just imagining the whole thing
Don’t want to run in that direction
The right balance between safety and autonomy, financial security, and creative freedom
Georg Trakl
Maremmano-Abruzzese Sheepdog
Losing a friend you were getting to know
A tactile activity
A shock
Your emotions are over flowing
making love
You know what this feels like but this time it’s happening in plain sight
the beginning of the rift
Skin deep
Surveying
The Angels
One day everything is dead along the trail the another day it isn’t

Wintergreen
the missing point
Ferreting for it
We all have a planet or two
Wassily Kadinsky
So it feels a bit nicer
The tooth fairy
Not that stretched out
Some things you have to know, some things you have to learn
Or so they say
Unmooring myself
Tactics might change
The dangers of getting to the depths of it too soon
be sure about every letter every step not on toes
You can bet they’ll loot your leftovers



The Shape That Surrounds Me
Are your words
Suspended in purgatory
Savage pandemonium
Pigeoned in the snow
Stolen time in your head
Who wants to sign up for the unknown?
Shapeshifting
It’ll just all end you slowly and perhaps not gently
Speaking in statements
And so we say farewell to our hero
The Champions Elect

Interesting State
Circumspect dream sport
How seriously do I take myself, how real is this becoming?
It’s just Gratitude
Beauty, truth
Say hi 👋🏾 to your powers
A Residency on earth, a place for rebirth
You can forget about a lot of stuff
In a nutshell, notes
Silently waltzing into psyche’s
A broader circle
A Friendzone
Check your heart at the door
The things we only see on TV
THE too many sighs
THE BROMIDES
Eventually they’ll wipe just wipe youR slate clean

Interstate
How prison?
How activism classy is acting like this
THROATING inchoate poetry
Smoking in an alley
Pretty impressive early pressure
Trapped in my own Thing
Symbols of defeat
Crazy machines
Evaluating faces
Something is very clear but some things aren’t
Art which makes you uncomfortable
Reflections are warped
Pond scum seeps out from behind the veneer
Flat feeling spark fleeting
Sound effects
No safe distance from the firecrackers
So we just keep going after what we want,
Choosing a font, writing a story before it’s even happened
A coincidental trance, a foreshadowing glance
In every way grown grotesque in a second
Floodlights, floodgates
All seeing our needs disagreeing, ourselves disappearing
The greatest nightmare and the greatest gift, wondering what do they think? What if?
Musta been burned
The thought that I could hurt could only hit you now
Pleasure in the past, anxiety around the future
Preaching to a choir who can’t sing, theory and practice are two different things
RC Cola, not the real thing
Hope street
broken mirrors
Might as well be imagining things… like the time for example

Cold and Familiar
Fortune telling your true layers
Conjuring someone sharp and unique
A tarot stone, a rock my boat
All the Otis Redding float at the dock of bay
Spiral staircase to a center
A resigned place with a mender
Running hot blowing cold
My heart is vacant
Who are you and what are you doing in my head?
Bourgeois Socialism, Lifestyle Liberalism
Nothing will save you, but something will for the time being
Most lies mostlies
That’s gonna attract some animals
Some got hell in their locker
A strange paCe
a vacant soulless register

Following a Path
Pleasure in the Past
Fixated on the future
Along a beach
Zig zag back
Across frozen shore
Streetcar waiting a father to lead the way waiting
Anger to self, inside out
who’s yanking your chain?
How do they advance so quickly on me?
Followers
Preaching to a choir who can’t sing, theory and practice are two different things



Hard to Remember
Unconscious repair
Conscious content
Elder wisdom through the hawks descent
Pigeons scatter
Mourning doves desert averting disaster
Altered states, altered images
Accumulating Flow
Myopic loss expanded vision
Where will those talons make their incision
Natural resources are tender
Instincts at the centre remember
The hawk will circle dismember
A feeding ground, a quiet sound
A source, an inner being
Dying and reliving
You know the feeling of healing
Warring elements and din
Shadows, Projections
Optics, Romantic contempt
We never know what’s tearing us down

There is only now that is real, and even that feels fictional because it is spliced together with memories of the past to create a narrative. I can claim to have a good memory but it just means that I am a good storyteller adding color to the faded fragmented memories. What is now is real when it ceases to be fictitious. True memory awakened in the moment. The tendency is to inflate the usual and deflate the unusual, but the opposite true, these are moments of wonder. Now doesnt feel real because we are sleep walking alone in the present, only to be awakened by others presence, frightened we retreat to the past.

Full of Grievances
Over and over circling the block looking out for a Cooper’s Hawk
Rickety joints
Dilapidated beats
Through nature we seek
I’m a ghost dreaming
The big picture, the large scheme
An interesting lucid dream
The only thing happening in this weather is decay
Another way to do things
Meandering thoughts wither and stain
Smokestack and pigeons scatter brain
Preying (on doves)
A nativity scene of psychic activity
Clouded and shrouded
A big piece of the puzzle
New thought movements letting things have their day
Scarecrow trees, holy oaks
This is resistance training
Breeding ground, nesting material
Different perspectives hiding in plain sight
In the distance microscopic and omen that of the myopic
Full of grievances as the seasons change
Silent salty rocks absorb snow drop
A fall traced paying attention, embracing a new pace
Another way to do things a tune that rings
A solitude that sings
You have your soundtrack
A loop of dread or a revolution instead
Right behind the clouds you can see it
Does the neck crane in or out? Do you have doubts about what you are seeing
Flapping and gliding yapping and divided
Feeling of elsewhere
Different mandates for emancipation
Something to get a closer look
Contingent temporal decisions
Close rendering, quiet din
A hidden gem, a faulty antidote
Universal language, custom framing
Spare details
Who you are is what you see
Dreams

Man by the railroad tracks
London fog futurities
Cooper’s hawk, Kestrel
a cardinal on nye, new directions
I’ll decide tomorrow if I’ll stop here or carry on
Just Playing the Blues
Just add ice
Hard Time Lovin Blues
legs shaking
My feet have felt the earth
Hazy Provenance
Strange beginnings
the same cycles
straddling the line so often
space occupied


Leave Some Doubt
Leave some mystery, a who dunnit, a cheeky houdini
Groans grunts and brooding music
Growing pains
Body language, body anguish
Mystic neurosis, losing it, tripping on things
Ebonics
The clock is the witness
You sanctioned this
The people’s dj writing an acoustic essay
Chain link fox
The glow of love is less
Given the routine
A questionable crowd, insecurities aloud
I feel like a met you before is my four on the floor
An immaculate set
Deep enough, addicted to love
Doesn’t take much for tears these days, platitudes, “Happy New Year!” is just what most people say
Shopping for ice cream I scream of
What u seen or what u saw
information you have and information u don’t
…..a unique calamity
Dynamite and Decisive Moments


Leave Some Bottles
Arrested Development
It only gets easier
Submission and admission
Deafening and defining silence
Pile on of thoughts, pulverizing loss
Abstract remnants
Worlds apart in the same city
Ugly yourself, patterns of doubt
It’s all kind of one thing leads to another
Just as lost, at a loss
Skimming
Beginning to end is beginning to the end
Blanket statement
Cognitive labor
How quickly can you check that tendency
Think about the good seeds
common decency


Some Pages Might Get Torn Out
How much of the misery did I miss?
Who’s the dark horse?
Something about the things that are written and something about the things that are said
Poise (takes)
/and I said…/
Hating someone else’s guts, tasting someone else’s strident gum
it more fun that way
That’s the catch
Nobody wants to watch a game like that
These squares are close enough
I guess you gotta figure that one out for yourself

Some Books Might Get Burnt
Take shelter or sangfroid
Rituals
Dreaming is seductive reality is smart
Silly rabbit unraveling this in mind again
I’m clocked in
You can see how the charade got started
All that lavender all that mint
Ubiquitous
Y’all got some sorta superpowers
Time to get curious time to be myself
Hiding within myself
Organizing myself
So much skin
If it’s not one thing it’s another
That’s essentially the compromise
Absorbing things from my
atmosphere… Subliminally
Slow History
Other History
Holding doors for strangers

.

I don’t hear any anti-boxing day cheer?!
What year is it?
Close the vault
Cool dry place
Overcompensating for a lack
What would it be like if someone really got me?
Leave some mysteries out there
Chapfallen
I’d like to know the person that’s been hiding
Journey optimization
A big piece of the puzzle
It’s shakes, the nervous energy honestly
The state
Talking In Circles
Downloading information
NON SEQUITUR HISTORY
Strangers and books

All the Family is Here and There
An embarrassment of riches creates a character of stiffness
Lessons toughly taught
The bow on top is a posh knot, a constricter
A trance
Peel back the layers of each store sign paid with
Sell the indelible
To each their own teeth to reach their own decay delay delay walk slowly today
Just another admirer
Moved by the word
full disclosure
Suddenly not ironic

And of Course
Due course
Something dodgy
Descended tremendously down
How many times do you press send?
Hot blue, Saccharine
Love the journey
Every flower every plant
For Pete’s sake
Quietly courting a distortion
Underground screams
Tunnel vision
15 minutes of fame
one way traffic
Another bad habit
Red riviera
Going for a jog or walking the dog
Caning and craving
Cavalier hazmat
Love at first fucking sight
Ambling along batteries not included
Somehow not concluded
A dirty symphony, a staged exit
Another escape from Alcatraz
Amused by the msg confused by the lesson and the lack
Something topaz a gem or a jewel
The initial twinkle,the stick up, that first spark
Ex marks the spot
In every way in one word, want
Ombré lights
Miming TMI in my head again
At crux of deliverance the flux of your experience
What on earth are you fighting for?!
Gone
At a loss, an albatross, a cinder block

a crater on Mercury."MOnk" a name adopted by the International Astronomical Union in 2013, after American jazz musician and composer Thelonious Monk. 66.08°N 296.19°W




It’s Almost Christmas
And another new year
Deep fakes and data dignity
Aging like grace
Drinking the dream into existence
If you’re not present just be honest about where you actually are
Let things have their day
we're So finished that we’re fine
thats a good thing to base it on
Giving and taking is really a thing
Never curse yourself if you’re blessed
This whole thing could just whisk us away

Clues
I have no idea what I’m doing
Just resting, just testing
Trying
The Same Things You Love
Another sliding door moment
The live already shown already shared
It’s amazing who puts money on you
Let’s just forget about us
There’s a lot of endurance here
Butterflies in the bathroom, if's and buts in the balance
Chasing dogs under my thumb
Heartbreak crime, a moment in time
Clues, purview
Unstoppable force immovable object
Easy Life, Famous Last Words
A long drawn out story
U gotta last in this place


Key Words
U hear the cosy ones
Underestimating changes
Overcompensating words
Things to jot down and think about while jogging
Only you have it, only you make it
One conscious or unconscious decision to another
according to the plan I had no idea about
Trying to tell ourselves how bad we’re hurting
The scramble to preach Broken Blues
and how This universe is alternate, and unfortunate
Very Sally Rooney

Underlining Causes
Maybe nots
Doesn’t matter gaze
Always in the eleventh hour
Insortable
Find your subject matter
The gap between theory and practice is different for everyone
I’m no stud but I got decent range
Everything isn't riding on it but everything’s riding on it
imagine yourself imagining things; looking so serene


Imagination is the driving force in human nature. But it is likely to run wild and escape into the chaos of endless desire, unfulfilled longing and alienation. - Vivienne westwood

Thoughts to jot down...
What are you seeing along the way?
We wish them the way we camouflage live them, we want them the way it seems
It comes out of your pores
Someone to fall into the flow of things
I need a bus driver not a passenger or give people time to catch up with you stop thinking and get things in order overweening
I don’t want the luxuries of that world that life
that shameless bastard
They’re often entitled
Minus a couple
half moon glowing brightly
you’ve already read the answers to your burning questions
aspersions
bowdlerize
Back to work
8:33a.m.

My Own Private Pencil
Like a crayon
Jingle bell maudlin
Don’t know what later looks like
Sometimes you just walk off the job
You should probably sit with the words, but I know you won’t the wheels are already turning
Staying power
Manage the boundary not the person
estranged to self, writing to yourself, stranger than fiction
Bellicose Oystercatchers, and Red Billed Choughs
Tools for raising consciousness
I hope I’m seeing things
Seasonally
peeled for moments… seized

“The expression of all individual imagination is what I call harmolodics and each beings imagination is their own unison, and there are as many unisons as their are stars in the sky” - ornette coleman


Claims to the Contrary
Enough
Barked down by a poodle in the woods
Off leash
Never ask what they wished for
Not that I acted off nature
You’re nobody’s problem
Underlining issues
Mouthing words in head, moving head instead
Feelings stuck in the mail
Thinking out loud
The right psychic distance, the right teaching, thanks
Touching almost a glance
You wanna get out the way
Award winners
Rational vs irrational fears, what are your concerns based on?
Surreptitious, superstitious
Conscious uncoupling
Can’t play mother Teresa an mamma fox
You can grow so much in one conversation
I hope your receptors are still on
Raconteurs Built in incentive
The flowers picked (while) apart
The truth in the music
The same life and force u eat dinner with
I’ll watch from over here
Delicious, and camera shy
Gradualism vs. punctuated equilibrium

It is better to deal with people who have intuition now. You see they don’t know what they are doing. The ones who do know what they are doing, haven’t proven anything. - sun RA

Upbringing a bit of baggage
At a loss
Another person screaming in the rain
That must be what it’s like
Supplicating, Duplicating
peccadilloes
It’s serendipitous and sad
They were also a baby once
I got a lot of questions

Decent Neighbourhood
Good music
Overdetermination, under determination
People are perpetual metaphors
I’ve lost you so many times it’s time to let go
Speaking of it
Telling people what they want to hear
Hey glad to hear you’re safe
always, always willing to hear you out
I’m in a hard spot which I have been doing my utmost to navigate
respect for my boundaries
Take care of the things right in front of you.
Focus on the things you can control
Time to put in a shift
Skip sketch dynamics
I don’t know if there’s any gist to get but I just digested it
Seasonal Forgiveness

You Should Figure as Much
Probably past 9
It’s a moral dilemma for me
Changing Weather Patterns
Mood swinging, jingle bells ringing
I’m a mystery to myself let alone anyone else
remote controlled and broken but I stick to myself like glue
Blowing hot and cold
Waiting for better weather
Winning and Losing
stuck in the morass

Not a Bus Driver Either
Shaking what’s in your pocket til it pops
Saw a hawk soaring past a rainbow cloud
and I'm still finding flowers everywhere

I’m Actually Not a Great Swimmer
It’s shocking because it was written so unconsciously
Absorbing information
On the floor of the streetcar
Viewing the exhibition of torn pages
Listening to your own thoughts
recognizing fine without It
The nightmare in your chest
Dollarama Denile and lost purple gloves at your feet
Avoiding the thing you want to do most
That’s the killer
Being left on a need to know basis
Looks like garbage is garbage what a waste
Beer out of tear ducts
Smooth move Clooney
/an area of darkness
The moon is juniper cakes
and ale is the price of murder
gladiator law
a moveable feast
east to west a guilty gauntlet
where you only live once
modern theatre where the price
an imaginary point of view/

Forgive Me for Flailing
I’m just reading the book too fast
Pulmonary wounds and magic powder
actions speak
Blazing a trail heart a blaze
Everything brazen all the time
The voice itself is an instrument
Let’s see how this will finish
Space for Roots
stepping off script
time for us to submit


Actually Not a Straight Line
She puts the stethoscope to my heart
Lazily covert, overt, open closed and shut
A cardinal perched above
Every time rat dies
Sticking your neck out for the axe makers gift
Skimming the love story
Temptation
The sucker with the lollipop
Hitting the dashboard
Chomping on skittles with
Vaseline on teeth to smile
Recycling hearing and speaking the same argument
You’re your only soul, your lonely obsession
Tell me how to grow up
Hit by a big yellow school bus
Asking for a cavity smoking through gravity
Do u wanna stomp that feeling
the Meaning to the monotony

Retiring
Tapping out
Looking at things from another angle
if you want a ghost of a chance
keep on Moving

Tiring
Shahs
Praying that the sun is up
Drying a slippery floor
A cruel joke
You shown me my capacity to love and a millions ways to break my heart
Losing something right when you need it most
Happy accidents
You keep messing with the line in the sand while we're stranded on the beach
I don’t know who’s speaking to me
Just another statistic
Time to water those plants
Some movies don’t end well

The Same Paranoia
Stop
Count your reserves
We’re leaving under a full moon
These thoughts will die nicely
Just like that wiped out
Feigning masculinity and feigned misogyny,
another heart cooked on the barbe(cue)
I’ve heard too many country songs lately
Put your bandana on the kick drum
Tens Songs of heartbreak and too much topaz
Curated cowboys, quiet cbc noise
So I guess you’ll awaken to this message.

Happening Again
Like you don’t wanna know
Like a whirlwind
Small spirals
Good ideas need to come together
Surfeited
Playing games and putting out flames
cleaning the sink
one thing to look at
focus on heavy breathing
IT'S as opposite as IT appear

Landing the Plane
In good faith
Its only going to be exciting for a minute
Asking questions of the defence
A serious question at my age
Intellectual risks breaking off and trading spaces
Ssense of Responsibility
Shoot em up sequels
Patterns of consumption, runaway tech
Zooids
Things can quickly turn into that makes sense
Who’s going to fight for you and who is gonna fight you
You’re only as far as you’ve made it
The project of managing ourselves

I don’t knoW

Maybe the feeling of elsewhere is mutual but we have different ideas of where that is?

Maybe we should talk about it from the moon

For perspective

Something WILL be different about that scene

Maybe we should land this lover spat from a space craft

So we can see how small the problem really is

Maybe for some real hoopla we should have political debate live from outer space so the bad actors can get a good view of what they actually want to blow up in what seems to be their movie

That would be moving

that would be change

Maybe we should be settling all these scores from somewhere far away



It All Counts
Consilience
avoirdupois
Whatever feels like enough
Treat the place like you just moved in
You cut out toward the end there
I certainly indulged alright
Not exactly exotic fare

They’ll even thank you later
You need wings to do the work
Sea yourself
Did my utmost
Enmeshed with the weather
One with the wind untethered
One of those auras one of those fields
Dancing in ambiguity
Mirrors and Dichotomy
Respectability (Politics)
Other side of the tracks
Either compromising or confronted with the composite…. Constantly
moments not eternity
Better to hold hands
Everyone Has Tickets
To the same show

You’ll Thank Yourself Later
Lubricate the process
Be the same to everyone
A concerning place
No flash camera
Live potently, love poetically
This is a new turn
A key piece of the puzzle!

Stick to Basics
Select RnB cassettes
Close all tabs
Leave great pauses
Then press her play button
Spin the wheel of fortune, play the interminable dark arts
Stick your head in an unorthodox box see what comes out

More Challenging
Grinding and grilling
Wrestle what belongs back rapturously
Gaucherie
Public conversations, loud speakers, and slow walkers clubbing
Mr Hallmark channel
A foregone conclusion to be continued at any given moment
A Millhoused heart that one can’t keep from falling
maybe We’ll grow old and die and shit
Bout the time you figured it out
You would never hear the end of it
Always someone not hearin it
Definitely feels like we’re all carrying a bit of the grief
I can’t remember the last time I made out with someone on the first date!
Adventures
The thing you say in your head that doesn’t quite make sense
I feel like an amphibian
U never know what’s marinating
Not thriving on this team
Old Websites
The Foxed
“I’m okay with the errors”

Looks
Detritus
Fasting rather than flying
Flurries
Any entry point
Valence
Time sensitive playlist
Another intuitive exercise
Cosmically enchanting
Definitely some jousting going on
Imagine the satisfaction it gives you
We all go to our corners, we all close the door to our rooms
Getting it from the universe
Just when you thought it was going horribly wrong
Acting all professional, talkin like a boss
Otta take you back to the ranch
Where you get that spark?
Smelling like papas johns
Acting all John legend
Penguin Cafe Orchestra
Bullseye
Put that out there
A room for words
Another form of poetry likely to end as sleep
Back to the juke joint
Problem solved
Won the lottery
You do see it happen
Catchin up at just the right time
I’m still reading the sea, the sea
It’s almost full
My timing was off
A Hegelian Ponzi scheme
A proclivity for faster things
Moons matching asking questions
If you can balance that way
A sad place to wait
How are you undoing?
Are the plants actually growing?
You can’t look at how real things are forever




The Next Big Day
Is everyday
Walk slow
Balance like a dancer
Get a paycheque from the universe
Emotional currency, emotional urgency
How long is forever
Possession
Inexhaustible
Keep a big secret sometimes, write it in cursive pen in your head
Poof the magic happens
Judicial congestion
You’d be Everything they’d want you to be
Human Nature channel is not the best in show
Mixed up in all this earth
things have dog gone gone wrong
Know where to put really awkward things

Of Human Bondage: “They notice it when they first see you then they forget all about it”.




Settle your nerves
let The mess up crystallize
skip That One Assumption
Things will get weirder

Tmrw
Take your time
Repose
Brick by brick followed your own yellow brick road
Step in sync
Elevenses
Trailways, Greyhounds
sad the bridge to tmrw
Seasonally laconic
Beguiling bloom
Dying to know dying to leave it alone before noon
Orlando, florida
Imagine you moved in here ten years ago
How hot is this ticket
Now you’re thinkin straight
Skip this iteration


Big Day
See who turns up
/and it’s a really good book/
/I need to feel relaxed/
The disparity in America
A bathtub you can’t bath tub in
Tend to the garden water the plants
Head hot feeling inside out
Funseeking, light leaking aura
Lush life
Suburbia
You might not be here rn
Sampling is no small thing
We all drink to our level of insecurity
Don’t leave the band aid on too long
Moving against the seasons

Get Some Rest
Recharge your brain
I’ll pick the flowers in the meantime
Quite a reception
Good art
A queer composition
Any kinda percussion
We’re all just having a good time
getting by
Superconnected
Being of service

Walk it Off
A gorgeous course
/I don’t cook ever, fuck that!/
The terrier group
Change the lighting
Hard written all over it
I’ve seen them give in
After many a fall
Isolation

Ride it out
It’s your Inherent nature
Love is a work of art a beautiful tragedy that will never be complete
Enjoy the ambiance
Some stuff you gotta let hang out
Hit the bowling pins
Shed the old relics
The not so highbrow
hardly any
Redeeming Qualities

Recovery is Key
Load the mental calories
Ransacks for facts past
Braiding and twisting past paradise
Not exactly a black diamond but steep
Being a little European about it
I just want to pack for tomorrow and check the weather
There are so many things I don’t need
I like to travel light
Blues or blizzard
Someone to go downhill with and come up with in the lift
Praying for an apres
Dressed like John Mayer
Na you don’t want to do that
Just differences and timing
What are you going to say to that
A bit at a time is bittersweet
All these people
Recovery is key
Informed citizens eating the candy
Which idea is strongest
Yard sale or smithereens
Do actions align with values
Repeats(ing)in the dark
A beautiful soundtrack
Puts you in trance
Right at the heart of it
How can you be that specific about anything
How did you find meaning within your day?
Were you looking in the right place?
Who made you a playlist?
Who loved you Caramel Buttons?
The do west generation,, the Coca Cola sensation the do you temptation
Dead limbs, swollen members, pack your goods and get on your course
Wishing for a non carbon cooker a pre 23 nike streak
Light legs
Recovery is key
Please wear your most anonymous top
You’re the nothing I can’t do about the someone I just can’t love
How’d ya make it happen?the aging happen? The migration of teeth grittin em
Gettin guts insteada gut rot
Double dipping baritone, plastered in fantastic
A brutally unique thing
If we can rush into a mistake that would be good, that would be are art
Nice up enough
Sometimes they just so fall so far into your frequency
Why don’t you point for waving the whit flag?
It’s a copywriter dream
I’ll meet you there later 👋🏾
A settling song
Anything can be next
Biting my lip at that one
When I open my eyes it’ll all be over
Soft Winds
Not having the words



Be
Replace the rot
Make room for wisdoms
Woke patterns
The fine line between people pleasing and patience
Land the jump
Walk
It’s not a far drop
If you’ve already looked yourself in the eye today you’re already on the winning team
a Campion
A cool version of a free spirit
Love or fear
Whatever way the wind is blowing





NO LONGER
feel another disappearing act coming on
Did we just go through the sixties?
old normal
Guess they got the tweeds
Plenty of time to walk around lookin fresh
Missive
Fast cars, past caring
Try
Listen to some classical
Docudrama
Staying true

What can
Be meditating
Disabuse
Looping
Suddenly the sky isn’t so blue
Although today the washer clogged
These stories just get worse

Reconciled
Boiled onions
Blow em off
Pro social risk
Each job is a move
You’re only that you in that moment
Good at making others do things
Let’s read that part outside
Necessary and unnecessary roughness
Not even being nostalgic about it
Coughing it up like Bogart
Keep asking questions, bigger ones
Who’s on the other side of those clouds
Impt theme bombastic forest green
Potholes grates
My november has been kind... it's been quite a year
Purple Rain
Wetlands
Good grey







What can’t be
Drawing a line in the sand with a circle around it
Compound interest
unfortunately it'll be fine
the thoughts aren't gone, they're just in the pantry for when you need em
fun problems
These feelings are familiar
Redlining
/I don’t know where this place is maybe we’ll get there, maybe we won’t/
Missed something
I’m a break in case of emergency
a Sicknote
Scratchy throat
I’ll make the appropriate changes later


A few things
Chimera
Memory, sense, imagination
Is that how you take the corner
Ride off into the sunset
Mr. Workshop
We enter the story at different times
How do you relate
It’s the words you use
What you say to yourself and who gets in the trenches with you
I hate war, can’t imagine compliance
You’re okay with a few dents in your armour
Remember where you left off
In the moment, not in the moment
How does it make you feel up inside
when You can’t even reconcile Conflicting realities



Consider
it's a flex
Solace in youth
/look that’s the other side of the coin too/
Exigency
Stolen moments
Perfect strangers
You’re no overnight sensation
They either don’t get you or get you more
It’s a slow drizzle
Silence distorts
Maybe it’s too painful to listen to the orchestra of thoughts

Hard
Spooky tools
The bright side of the road
It’s amazing getting up
the same song
odd future
The paradigm built out
Dropped down through the park
That thing ticking on your wrist tells ya how dark it gits
If you see yourself in other people you might could be anyone
Regarding similarities

Study
Imagine what they’re thinking now
I need to see for myself in all honesty
Wont be around to take it
Who’s Mr. Everybody
Hear it from other folks
The baby in the bar
They don’t know you’re in there
It’s life or death
All disorder
Take your pick
Bought teeth
The constant worry of doesn’t taste good
Ensnared
Like a Loch Ness
Treating your belly like sonder
They stopped using words and Choreographed laugh
Chomping conservatives
High pitched lowlife
/it’s very high school drama/
I’m the cowboy boots you give to goodwill
The town gossip
Hanging on my every last word
Dropping connotations
Bouncing bullshit
The narrative can’t be one way
How did you get your seat at the table and how do you want to pass the ball?
/Settle up/
/I don’t do platinum/
/this the hottest party in town/
How many screenshots can you share with me?
I’ve never met you before
/you’re embarrassing all your friends/
Chuckin your glass
there'es a Choreographed laugh
and a High pitched lowlife
Exercising books
Let’s not get too carried away with one way of thinking

Don’t mind the audience
Do one of those things you go out and do on your own
Be a stranger
Triple triple, flat white
Angsty
That’s a heavy idea
A creative life, a personal pattern of action
Is there only one true day when you’re you?
The editor can do whatever they want to
We can only imagine
When you really think about it
And think about it
And think about it
And think about it
We’ve been staring
At our reflections
For some
Time




Sitting with yourself
Things will sound a certain way no matter what
Especially that love song playing
Hiding in the question you can’t answer
No ideas
You took the backroad
Construction sounds and stuff
Don’t doubt where to pull it from
I know the solace of seeking
Like the back of my left hand
How much can you really know
How do you keep it real?
Fall into a large pool of dudes
Caramaple leaves
Last one clapping, last one sitting with your self



Speaking with yourself
Giving yourself NRE
dialling into the situation
Just until it won’t disappoint you
when did you start to believe something bad would happen?
what music took you there?
Code switching
Portmanteau
Limit the damage
Find your own remote place
It could go a number of ways
Do a size 10 samba
Rock up in your two step boots unannounced
Put on a lid on it and bin the bullshit
Take care of the twins
Dumbed down, pent up
Future fake, hope make
Fashion a smile, fancy a taste
Speak in sloshed emoji the rest will take care of itself
Careful what you wish for
We’ll find out what we’re about
My own damn dial tone
Although you’re not
Saying it cuz you have to, meaning it like you otta
A place for your piece of shit friends to spill their guts to a shithead healer
A mazy space
Just like the poor man’s vise grip
Not even on the edge
no more McDonalds, no going through The Motions



How hard is it?
Better round the corner
A radical becoming
not the kind of day you want to spend on earth
better things have happened since birth
something innocent is done dearly departed
Now is the perfect time to send it
Bite into a nothing to lose steak
The no flash thing doesn’t work
a walking drama trap
Just because it’s today
A message in a crushed bottle
This isn’t my neighborhood
songs heard in the wind
different feelings from different places, and different times
maybe other people just say it better, some things just enter, no matter where i am...it could go on and on....
Far away here
On your nerves and in your pockets; selling
In every story I’m the last one to arrive
It’s been dark for ages
Domestic Dystopia
Doing the work

Honestly
Go back to bed
Always leave em with something good
Helter Skelter
You can be my bad ass bitch if you own it
Falling apart forest green
Leaving
The seat looks like the moon
Lavender leg warming
A song before you were born
Be present
Someone’s calling
Please, please my pickup line
I know there’s no sharing
u need to use a sharper knife/image
Cold
Wrapped up like a last gasp burrito
And the whole entire time disco music was playing late Luther Vandross
Keep up it wireless
Be sure to get the mortician's Instagram
Honestly I swear I’ve seen this show before
How on earth did they get the band together
Hill repeats and poems
Perpetuating a premise
We can be that good apart together forever
We’re the everyone you can’t control, the you gotta live
An emotional suit for different days
I think I might want kids and i don’t want to talk about why
There’s no password to the palace
just Jump in the gene pool


Zoom Out
find out where don't give a fuck lives and you’ll save your life
Don’t let your flowers wilt
There’s a way you don’t want to feel
A not nice nerve
Tenure anxiety
Notice the difference
Comfortably uncomform
Hit the bricks, hit the books
Terraform
You’d have to be in fight club or metal band to withstand this grey collar bs
A litany of counterbalances’
Or just fancy some bs
You do good things but focus on the bad
This will happen again
I’ve had to niggarize how to get here, strategize
Squeezing every muscle
Knowing this other part of you exists
Our can’t do a thing time/part of the year
Eating to the death, fighting to the finish
This thing will happen again
Leave the door open at the copacabana
Don’t dance to Gordon Lightfoot our tears are right here
You don’t belong in a place like that
Learn where to turn the phrase, some of them
Don’t narrow yourself to one, spend too much time in McDonald’s
The grown up equivalent of storming to your room with a psychological teddy bear
The need to be alone
Why have it arranged when you can arrange it yourself
Don’t promise anything
When that other part of you speaks
When you didn’t say anything, and it didn’t look like you was allowed to
It’s like a brand new person is hugging you every single time
but There always one part I just can’t seem to get to
Plenty of penne where that came from
Everyday Renaissance all day reticence
Resentment Manifest
Probing from the Periphery
Passing the point of pity
Always always 
It’s that image, the crooked angle of my teenage windows, the black silhouette of the birch tree in the front yard backlit by the early orange sun
Just about leaf less,just about lifeless tented beneath the sheets
The room will brighten with daylight savings, and the clouds will appear
This I know… we all decay
Slowly slowly always always
When is the art finished?
How do you hang on til the end of the show?
Separated enough
Your mind is diamond
Something happened there too
Read it backwards and read it forwards
So you want my emotions
The others wouldn’t be real
Beyond Earthly things
You can’t get burned
Don’t turn back into that person
A certain kind of low
Get the gawkers in, gawker level
The premise that it won’t work out
The inside out
Some things are just intel
Sometimes the universe has you like pesky std
A sticky pizza pocket
Hangover food you ain’t got in got in your fridge
Rap music in the kitchen
A good left hook

be all seeing
Make good
Play good getting shit done music
You never know
Could have the youth sucked right out of you
Back in Bakersfield
Spend time with your mother
leave The "baby I’ll get straight"
It just makes sense
Getting the kinetic energy from afar by post
Does it speak to anyone?
The people you keep?
The knees will give some day, the needs will leave someday
The emotional affection
I guess it makes sense
Pretty well matched
commerical breaks
Infantilized
Get on the other side of it
You’re not the only cause of your suffering
Know you’re lovable
Make the days line up properly
Emotional b and e
Breaking in dogs
They go in all directions
All these folks doing something to make IT happen
Use as much of the love as u can
Telling yourself it’s never going to happen
I want your passion
Only you know what this is about
It comes down to the dog days gone
The days not left
Sending my past days love
Gotten so little that I can’t take a lot
Jump in a pool and get wet, say goodbye to neglect
Iris recognition
Hardly a coming together
Some wind up when others wind down; depends on the seasons
a crime if I’d ever seen it
a different journey (to the same place)
fighting the same system in different ways
We’ll likely end up in different places
Teeter totter, systemic fodder
Respectfully disagreeing

Of being
Tabling the taboo talk
All the things we can’t talk about
Something bc out of nothing
Growth spurts
The free range type
Dumb resolve
Imagine the worst you felt the most you felt ignored
They’re clearing house
Nothing to fix it
Imagine you haven’t spoked soul today
No goosebumps
Love being waved by a wand, clutched like a want
Interpersonal
Til the end of the show
Blame it on the blood clot
Up in the rafters
Somehow it all just works
Asleep and in a semi nervous shakedown
You can’t guess the moon
Astrology from the dollar store
A Tastefully janky situation
Hoping for a miracle, a maybe could be still
Nightmares for weeks
Playing with a significant difference
Deliberate Defiance
The whole situation is riding on it
Everyone’s afraid of someone sometimes
I have to at least consider it, be considerate
It can happen too fast for everyone
You can end up without your pants on outside; embarrassed
For whatever reason… I’m reticent…
frozen
In time



in becoming
Touch me in the morning
Before the huevos rancheros
Don’t be conservative
Fill me, find me with your eyes
How many others do you consider?
We need each other like yesterday or like lunch but it’s only a fast break
The wind is howling and these windows don’t work
Cast longer spells, shorter shadows
Play jazz to country
Widen the gap
Wear black
Jog to the woods
Make a poetic pact
Pull things out the brain
Take the long train home
You have me pinned rn
Touch me again in the morning
It’s like breaking into Fort Knox
See, it shouldn’t sound like how you seek it
(My own bad jaZz)
Review the charter
these people are alike in your life, a light in your life, and a leak in your life
That might be the case
That’s how that goes
narrating Depressive realism
Outlining Narratives
Private Manifestations


be very still
Mid
The rock we talked about
How often do you come down to earth?
An anxious balance an awkward veilance
Listen to your body
U suddenly just tense up
Consider the scenery
Inside the house
Your body cushions the blow as your body takes in new information
Waiting for the phone to charge
Pledging to the nightstand
Entranced to a song
In a primitive state for hours
Staring at the wall’s destructive pattern
Laying off the juice, laying down the law
They get u with/like an (ads)
The irrational numbers
Vibrations
That stupid ceiling
Negations, Negotiations
Otherwise it’s meaningless
I have another idea
These things require a broader explanation
take that shot
before That upside down moon goes out like a light