Will I Know You When You’re Older? Introducing a plotless conclusion Conflating moments Deflating tires Constants Gullible skeptics Negatively and positively bringing others into our conscious experience Something of that nature People are our own peyote Which one of me do you like? I’d like to give my legs the heave ho I’m standing still anyways it's the same thing! Not even a vacation So much of the same thing (I see in you and me) The entrance is located at the galleries The courage to keep going The record always stops, our records are finite
Perfect Attendance Whoever showed up to the party late missed the earlier show Before jumping to any conclusions Survey the scene, you seen this scene before A long undulating loop a circuit They’ll perform the shock therap behind your back Sinister things are at play Gotham city is real Riddled with cliches Did you find the adapter for your headphones You’ll find yourself back to the start in no time… (it’s fine) Grinding halt grocery store jazz It’ll be a miracle if today works out Old news new newspapers Lucky strikes lucky strokes A different orbit Anticipated beat Mairzy doats Let's call this
Paved Attention Trustworthy Awakening Drink water salad everyday Food for thought remember what once thought Things of the past stalkers grass The anvil will drop Pay attention to everything between the bumps In The road First in line is lame we have our own lanes Permanence is potential in disguise I’m smoking again hot and bothered Ok with the ambiance Earth tell me what to do? Oates Volume It could fall in many places The blanks will be filled in later I must emit me Ni trop misty They’ll do anything to get our attention None of this now, could possibly make sense now
Overnight Sensations Watching the buds closely Things spring to mind in bed Night shades the morning glory The Queen of the night is A long cold season silent conversation My misery is too important to me Just digging my heels in more So few words, almost inaudible It’s the coincidence which makes it confusing Catch me if me can Gooood mystery! This place is too small to feel zoomed out
Sentences Sleepwalking wide awake, some say somnambulists some seekers technically difficult easy easy easy don’t spill the milk there’s no safety net precious precautious steps still still steady every step is dear along the crooked straight Both stories sitting here between the two true Change transition movement Digressive progress Bits, sentences This song is breathing Some other time Running in circles in an empty room Mentors Time of death birth wrong place wrong time I’m convinced of it The ego will tell us what we want but how to go about getting it Deemed inappropriate I hate to say that I was just another stop along the way It’s a crooked straight What was the joke about The same shifty instruments ploys It was something interesting Early roots late buds
The Herd The herd mentality ain’t meant for me That was a good conversation It’ll never be good enough it’ll just be wait wait wait you’ll see Orange has good energy Do these words looks like me Now here’s the bad news My body says I got it wrong my mind says I played the swan Identify foreclosure What’s in the blueprint? Passing energy Makes me nauseous to see For all failing I’ll just make up another version Good episode What is was a moment ago though still Picking things out of the air Some daze to transcend Heard the bird but not the sound
Kinda Sorta, not really Pencil pusher In a certain place uncertain Learning to trust me Tear the paper up crumple it up You’re in a totally different place than where I want to be rn The impossibility of this working coming off Riddling insecurity insolvency The thought is just too volatile to revisit volcanic manic manic manic No rest assured ashore marooned on this island This site can’t be reached I feel awful As if fixated on the thought Shaky shape It’s should be sketchy drawing out life I’ll stop start pinpoint what’s right, carve out beauty, paint beautiful mistakes “Path Dependency” Robin taking a splash Pay attention to mirrors and reflections real and perceived Definitely ditched trust a while ago Starbucks ya mas pilot What kind of bird what kind of a tree they’re literally telling us how to be
Wrote wrote wrote Mr.Potato-head was baked waiting for the bus Dating old friends Nobody answered his question so he took off his lips More bright ideas ppl change your expressions Working unison Digging our graves every Monday Still abysmal Scrolling insecurities unconsciously Soooo you’re down here on earth… now what The sooner I can get out of here the better Expecting your best work vocal rendition these are the term’s conditions Someone will show up and I won’t stop talking about them; in fact I’ve already been talking about them.. painting a picture on my mind of what I hope to find Some of this needs to be archived This sentence says something diametrically opposed Symmetric Just looking for an improvement on last weeks score
I’d believe it if I told myself the same thing tmrw Flying kites, childhood, friends Cognitive cartography There’s an idea here in the forest You’ll always gain more from the process than focusing on what you stand to gain Starting from a good zero Time to workshop this idea That me doesn’t work the day shift That isn’t what I meant, I mean…
Young Spring robins, yellow beaks And that’s the great import Some of these things will age
You might not get it at first, it’s the repetition that will help Coulda been me Going to walk things back a few steps Two lips are wilting in April The whole thing was made up Now that you’re out in front do not under any circumstances look back (over your shoulder) it will show weakness Drawn to a duality two of me face off Mutable to the minute Quiet Hologram slowly moving Followed by laughter Downhill point to point
Becoming Pass on the change up I’m friendly with my inner fires With a little more intention And just like that the shadow is gone There’s nobody at the wheel It’s like a storm A field of of patchy feelings How it’s to be done if it’s to be done It’s just the end of a sentence Crazier things have happened to these words, there’s that word again it has become my friend
Masks Too many losers here You’ve gotta be malleable Knots, ten degrees and ten knots later we reached an agreement w Mother Nature There’s a distance that becomes perilous Nobody really learned their lesson I must be running hot There’s something enchanting about this That could go either way You find yourself in these places and wonder We can leave that out of it our conversation is approaching more fruitful benefits Harnessing psychotic syntax Ba ba ba ba bahhh ahhh Somebody tipped them off Somebody typed them off The ponytail and perma smile for miles Concerned w the before the before If we don’t move the world in this way which way is right?! The proliferation was an onslaught anything but; liberating… a weight a weight It’s likely someone else took those pictures because we’re unsure of em
Commission She doesn’t bite she doesn’t sting, she can be trusted What began in New York continued in the mountains Today tomorrow and hour she’ll borrow There’s something in the linden blossom tea— spit it out The case is simple — closed She’s like cigarettes— a second order consequence, sequentially aligned w my habits We’re in the same orbit worlds apart when the bell goes off again and the crab apple pie is ready the words will escape me Freedom or Free Mind Pyrrhic Meta narratives Spinning old narratives rather than creating new ones Something in the quiet confines is brewing Broader messaging/m resonates zooming out Structures reflect projections, ppl reflect emotions but the strong ppl reflect other ppls projections We can blame the boy in the pork pie hat for not cutting the guitarist loose Our beliefs were near and dear ago now gone You’ve perpetuated the thought precisely and it is being proliferated to the corners of my mind as we speak Some of this sits in the same place where your my body can’t dance Our history requires no recollection or remembrances of past monuments they’re crumbs of our memories.. wheatsheafs at best striations of what we once sought Someone is animating abstractions Better off not, the state of the union address says we’ve regressed substantially There was a lucid thought before loss of my skin in the game…Nicklaus no loss at the end of the day.. Something will say open; say open to my sesame and that will say to me…. It’s turning to torture,I’d rather let it wilt than will it any further (willnt)
Funnily enough
Pictures of famous ppl
A climax of bad decisions
Back then everything was a threat, that was the climate
Used to heavy lifting
Emotions ensconced within the brambles
Once again it’s hard to tell which way the wind is blowing, only by the whistling window crack
Clearly the drugs are working
Soon this will all be yellow
I’m in the same place you left me
Before I actually type it or say these words are just as invisible to until I hit ctrl p
And so begins a long slow meditation, a death march into the mind
Formulated introspective matter
One in fur one frowning, they begged, incoherently to each other; inaudible to me
Rhythm Logs
Things got crazy for an hour there
At least I get to chat w myself.. I haven’t spoken to me all day
For one there’s easy another one hard for all there’s help
Forget it
Creative Consultant What it takes to get through a day clamouring thru dismay Latching to lucid positive memories Unlocking positive thoughts Staying abreast of my heart in my chest Keys dangling…jangling quiet to rest Who’s taking the pictures? This time too present; concurrent with the past.. the last time was meant to be conclusive.
Sustainable resistance
When the going gets tough
Concentration
Equipping for new worlds, weary of old ones
It was me in the picture physically but not me. Yet
Sleep
Avante garde
Uninspired
Missing batteries
Probably left the water running
Match their energy and you could easily be swept away on a cloud
Yield right of way, right away
People are naturally great actors, great storytellers
Did you sell everything?
Who’s in charge here?
Dog walks Minor league prospects Dormant hysteria Open Sesame
Softening opinions Stockroom At a later date Analog hours Some people say no to happiness, silently some shout it Something from the last dream seemed, appropriate How did the chat elapse Seeking foreign feelings Envy
Disrespect
Fuckin Gusts
What shocking, whats unique?
She tended to recount a lot of factual information nothing even remotely emotional
Adjust rear view mirror
A Lot
If it turns u on
Address physical distractions
I think we all appreciate people willing to veer into the enchanted areas of our emotions
Terrified worried for very clear reasons so it’s ok totally fine
Estate appraisal The anti ideologs Washing dishes Somewhere else
It’s just too easy to be conventional First a step, then a word then a picture A dot matrix picture, pixelated intentions Some days the cardinals sound, suffuse Sundays Tilting Connect to myself so I can connect to the world Decluttering mental, physical and creative inventory Move slowly High, the highest form of existence Something that would change the course of her existence Something about the process, purpose, or product At the time of reading I was… This book will help me with my present circumstances
Reframing mistakes in our most intimate moments Keeping my fire lit, so I can emit shine brightly Constructive conversations with friends (in my head) Individual struggles must become collective struggles. Behave Not that silent hedonism Rooms full of bad ideas and dealers stealing ideations Friendships maybe may be ruined
Anything for a buck we're sponsored content there's a small stream of optimism; bright orange beaks peaking out in April seeking dreams, opportunities, changing lenses up in the zone away from abstractions absorbing abstract philosophical fragments, eating food for thought... Somewhere in that register... Learning and letting these learnings live within. Nervy tumblers, adopting personas pictures in pictures, mistakes and almosts... Or a slow quiet death. We may look back and say the catharsis was beautiful searching the block for solutions,.. A Circular Search Blog? What did you learn today? Approaching it and stopping as the changes happen ppl will get lost along the way who want things to stay the way they are some will gush some will conceal stretching out rumination (Both sobbing…separately) GLOBAL plain speak is the level of equality to seek.
We need each other like oxygen you resuscitate me Painting over gifs Disappointed not to find L And R labelled on my socks Painfully and peacefully growing
Curiosity Stay curious Different doors, different experiences Artist, Editor, Publisher, Morning, Noon, Night, Sun, Moon, Rising
Floating SUnny, but not for me Yes folk, no folk, and frankly I don’t know folk posses of pigeons contentious issues, dubious clues Dishonest recreation Speaking from the heart Everyone wants a taste Present; standing in the doorway We’re all enrolled in different schools of life
Motivation, and Validity You can burn the mattress but does it even matter? The writing is on the walls we build around ourselves A steal! Pull up a seat Scurrying back to the the status quo Certain Blues Predecessors
Unselfing Rhetoric Unselfish tangents Define disappointing… Visiting your center, mining your core A thousand ways to waste today
Breaks Normalizing Mid Riff Mid Rant How must this look… this must look...
Confidence Building an imaginary bar Concerns about how things will play out
The smell of sage stayed Wheezing winds asthmatically whistling through the crack in the window seal not lost To be found Binga Dismond Wish you were here music
Displacement Receding shorelines Subtle gradual slow moving covert nightmares Softer quieter repetitions Ppl who can see the big picture Much loved bears How you see it Small observations Your needs have been addressed on vhs so now I must digress to modern technology and distorted seeds of thought that can be sold to the highest bidder Terror fear when I look in the mirror today I’ll try to play it deadpan like Parker, you’ll need to use a marker to draw a smile on my face… this is the state of my race… drowning in frowns watching the world upside down.
Dating profiles Rush Hour Sleeping in Beggars can’t be choosers sometimes How would they know?
Pause Help... The healthy kind I watched him spell it out This is happening all the time Only death along the path with blood red breasts and sunken hockey nets Taxing renditions Intellectually alive emotionally aloof
Spot On Muy muy very, did u bite that cherry and run? To your own graveyard. Banana split Last weeks rituals dead in the water drowning in a pool of forgotten promises a semantic muddle of this is and that’s not going to work Skip verse replete with errors repeat with errors You’ll have to listen closely the wrong way is brazen away from safe havens Blank spaces, how words move Stone in a wavy ocean of thoughts crashing off the rocks Someone is asleep wheeling and dealing the cards of my humanity Doubts formatting doubts Runaway train runaway Mary Jane I won’t go out kicking and screaming when the light go come on the right things have shone run away train missed the red flags checkered past go gone
Changing hobbies Fashionable partners Ideologies, departures not destinations Overlapping information Projectile Failures, Projecting Failure I haven’t much to do with it anymore What we were talking about in the shower Waiting at the bus stop Losing my skull with no bones to pick further from the plot tricked left to rot Leaving this thought here it’s nothing near nothing dear. Another seeker never finding sleep dreams love another sleeper never seeking dreams hope love. Sitting on the fence eating garbage, actually not my legs walking; someone else another person talking pacing pacing undulating dualities enough enough from me, a passing fancy mirror for your thoughts changing covergirl may be I can see IEP
First flights, first kisses Making out Warren Rivalries Undulations I’m more interested in the physche in which things erupted from Micro learning Phone preservations Personal Denouncements I thought u were dead This is what my phone said It was all in my dream What I thought I saw I’d seen Hot flashes Daytime dreams We’ve moved Up and down Undulating Undual-ating
One day to the next Groundhog Daze Facing back moving forth, going backwards in life Conduits Slow revolutions, slow resolutions Mercenaries Of or in the mind
Downers Tiny thoughts Living in a state of autocorrect Spring Cleaning Openings The Devil’s checklist Motion x Motion Instability Purvis Young
Enough Contentedness We’re a long way off yet… Let’s face it, could be next Abysmal All Day Inner Circuitry Green Velvet Depending on how you wear the beret Crescendos Wild Magenta
toys you couldn't have the dream state Interested questionable and unquestionable friends Inclement weather Welcoming storms Assuming new persona’s
Be familiar with your fluctuations
Faster
Processing thoughts… backwards
Productivity
Slow Mediums
Alto Bass Note
Blind Alleys
We buy new clothes when they don’t fit Estrangement from the realm of senses is a direct product of overindulgence - BH In representations they are most often given a childlike visage to remind us that enlightenment comes only as we return to a childlike state and are born again - BH Exponentially
Details within details Our Declaration of Independence served as a constitution… (This is a place in time) Act it out Gold Standard The seasons, learning from the seasons
Each Liminal relationships Personal Transformations Dated but forward Duty to facilitate others enlightenment Our willingness to make sacrifices reflects our awareness of interdependency - BH Big Melt Predictable power dynamics and dealing with uncertainty The practice of love offers no place of safety Suspicion of Solitary Politics
Windy Szn Difficult Subjects Cohesive Independence Reflective Covers Confined frames; being fine in confines
Shutting out the noise Subject Matter Loving yourself There are amazing women out there, I know this because there are amazing women in my life; mom and sister Organic Stimulants- PPL Bad unfulfilling relationships are like junk food — BH Some people give you indigestion but we can talk for hours because the food is healthy and we feel energized after. We are the seeds of our greater relationships. Thriving Beacons and Blunt Instruments Unwavering unflinching commitment to maintaining personal dignity and independence of mind Always the wind Back in circulation
Halfway into everything Improvisation NBC Music Jarheads Vibes are a Treat (cc: Bobby Hutcherson) An erudite person who can improvise and hit a lot different notes
Perfect Rolls 33:33 @ 3:33pm Love is not a topic she thinks about. Her life has been characterized by a lack of love. She has found it makes life easier when she hardens her heart and turns her attention toward more attainable goals—acquiring shelter and food, making ends meet, and finding ways to satisfy desires for little material luxuries. Lots of concealer 50s, 60’s, 70s Start Packing Moral Twilight
Firsts buds of the season Your Truth, not The Truth, Our Truth Rambert Screen time Ground down by low value activities “Nihilism is not overcome by arguments or analyses, it is tamed by love and care. Cornell New Love Revolutions
Repetition Flashpoints Keep reading the book and the story will reveal itself Blind Spots Masquerading Self-love cannot flourish in isolation. - Bell
Lost train of thought Just not shocked by the abominations Listening modalities Their conversation sounded like an interesting podcast A victim but also a student New Wave Cassette We never stop loving, leaving our hearts open Like raindrops falling each unique, but similar hitting the pavement joining the others, covering the earth. Not A Soul A good piece of junk New sensations Nothing spectacular Good Bassists (workhorses)
Organizing extra words, images verbal, visual language Don’t be someone that shovels when it snows, wait for nature to unfold… Expect more from people nobody walks around with their eyes closed forever. Be patient and wait for their nature to unfold. No hasty judgments Make it up, but make it make sense Testing grounds and grounds for testing… How much leeway is there for lessons?
Doing nice things Battling distraction Calling BS on Capitalism There’s comes a point when evolution stops, things revolve in in place; a spinning wheel going nowhere. Fast Each step passed and then there was another one. I don’t remember the last or the one just after that Each moment I cannot see for what it is, is the threat of a lifetime blind. Each you steal is I am robbed of the real (swirling music) Furrow at what you’ve just forgotten, squint at what you don’t see coming, smile at what’s in front of you
Very old trees Things must ascend and descend for there to be harmony The nothing changes nothing stops type If there’s nothing felt there is nothing to write, visual represent etc. Find feeling. Feel the world around
Din
In Love If we seek what we lack, we find it when we learn to love ourselves
Structure
Crisis, disaster, and existential awakening
Good music: We can relive yesterday, years gone by in the present day incarnations
Some riveted to the past some endlessly seeking new permutations of it
11+11 Day
A Short Trip
Wait, wait let’s see what happens in the next scene!
Wait for water, wait for wind
We’ll have grown and learned more patience
Stopping short of extremes
Definitions are vital starting points for the imagination- BH
Mom - tmrw plz gd
Pile of Denial
Beautiful Mistakes, making shape of mistakes
Intro, beginning of…
Greatest Hits (thought album)
Passports
Baltimore
Solitude and Exceptionality
Growing Oak
Reading about yourself
Slightly off the curve
A stretched out theory; a reach.
Motion
Pick apart the accidental
Vocal + Visual Internalization
Financial Scams Exhausting Existence , colonizing the mind. "One of the values invented by the bourgeoisie in former times and launched throughout the world was man—and we have seen what has become of that. The other was the nation. It is a fact: the nation is a bourgeois phenomenon". — Albert Camus ... You surf some groovy tangents
A restless, reckless soul If you know where you’re standing it’s harder to go somewhere else, so be creative take a spin round and round again and again
Sitting in nature “Your spirit is the part of you that is essential. It is separate from the imagination, and belongs only to you. This formless pneuma is the invisible and vital force over which we toss the blanket of our imagination — that habitual mix of received information, of memory, of experience — to give it form and language. In some this vital spirit burns fiercely and in others it is a dim flicker, but it lives in all of us, and can be made stronger through daily devotion to the work at hand.” Nick Cave In psychology they say we seek out what we lack in our relationships with other ppl … sometimes it’s just a shower Pianoless trios and not so free jazz At Free Times Cafe.. Not so free jazzy but the trio was cookin
Nature’s Progress "You're different" is the start of a conversation not the end "Bad" experiences are good lessons so no need to forget them It's fine... as long is it doesnt drive you to the brink
Seekers hoping for something in anything 3:33am Banked Thoughts Thoughts back in place, returning to the same place... "Parker? There's them over here can play a few aces too." - Joe Harriott Stencils
Perhaps this is what we are ALL fighting for? “I have found more of a confirmation than revelation” Cesare Robin DG Kelley The fight for mental freedom Most disliked people have just plateaued somewhere Rational Absurdism Exploring Solutions He’d drowned himself Collage of thoughts A student of thoughts Course in personal discourse
Jk Shocker! Minischool Education - Perspective; we're miniscule in comparison to the universe,time.
Fragile Characters Line of questioning Leveled Learn to ask of all actions why are they doing that. Starting with your own. - Meditations Look at the individual parts and move from analysis to indifference — Meditations The Soul, The Sun Lightsourcing
Young Trees Destination Moon “And in those yet more developed there is a kind of unity even between separate things, the kind we see in the stars. Advanced level of development can produce a sympathy even in things that are quite distinct.” Meditations
Young Oak trees Debates in Outer Space Things will settle soon, keep tending your garden and avoid other ppls graveyards 🌞 Rational + Social
Spark Plugs Pulling the wrong thread A record of how things occurred Seafoam/Black/Forest Moving Units (each day)
Bored Paused screen, different scenes… days of life Personal Prisons “If we limited “good” and “bad” to our own actions, we’d have no call to challenge God, or to treat other people as enemies.” Meditations Hot Pink Album Covers — Johnny Griffin, Bud Powell appreciating bad sax players
Ignorant Speech Villages idiots, and loud engines Building Blocks + Destiny “Philosophy requires only what your nature demands” Meditations 5:55pm
Out and Back Print Pages 1,11 Shoes $111.94 Seeds of thoughts and things The crazy thing is how alone you have to feel in this world to feel a part of it Statement/Scene Half necessity and half vision, New Wave directors used all that they had available to channel their artistic visions directly to the theatre. Cardinals
Laneway Art Some ppl do this, some ppl do that "Not to be driven this way and that" -- Meditations "If you seek tranquility do less" -- Meditations
Online Funerals Broad arrangements Reaching, Seeking,Obsequiousness Buttoned Up Jazz Subordinate Haircut
Timber! I was not surprised to see my mother working on the sales floor, and you could say I was glad not because a family member was working in the same store but because I’d get the satisfaction of seeing her bosses around.
Literal A unique approximation of a human Batting average up in the summer Not exactly having a renaissance “If this is so interesting to you, what is it? - Carroll Dunham (zeroing in) McCoy Tyner Plays Ellington
Far too into fantasies Self Portraits Medicine Cabinets Postcards in the mail Midriffs and Triptychs Understanding as precursor (empathy)
Where’s my six figure contract? Selling out for money Haptic Wake - Casey May McGuire At the heart of the matter “The recognition that the entries are as much process as product also accounts for the shapelessness and apparent disorder of the work” Meditations Intro — just the beginning of things (works) A coherent reading of the proceedings
Life Getting lost in one thing Living in brackets A living implication Emotionally transparent debates vs arguments
Places I’ve just been Footprints in the snow Parecon A long email thread b/t me and my subconscious
Post Pandemic Workin thru the changes
Foolishly conceding to opponents Needless Waste The time said, says 1:11, 9:12, etc Intro Stereo CAN
Courts with no hoops Inclusive, democratic sports Flow Segmentation Routine Vicissitudes Karlheinz Stockhausen Avoiding the perils of monkey dancing territory Being kind to myself Cement Old TV’s, GIFS
Of weak character; fragile, like a packet of crisps Wintering Miniatures Word Searches We're at the point of "Experiential Commerce™." Sad very sad Plenty of dog lovers out there
Aging, rickety joints Still stuck in the sixties Nvrmnd life is basically a b-roll Remembering Romare Beardon
Urban Laneway Artwork The itch that wasn’t being scratched Bare + Blurry I’ll have to remember 01 20 22 when a friend was frank and said they weren’t up for it; because I wasn’t either… That’s January for you
Mother Night - Kurt Vonnegut Suggested Reading Although she was beautiful and loved everything about my place, I had to wonder; why was she here? Can you please rephrase that in a more coherently colonial way Inventory
Tungsten Orange Fire Sky, Black Silouettes Delinquent Stakeholders Shorter Lifecycles Gradient Book INTROduction Postcard - what did you see? Pay As You Go: xoxoxox nondotcom disseminating content
Short Term Heartache Lessons Hypocritical and strictly political conversations Pointlessly pointing out peoples inconsistencies Gordon Parks “grain of sand…”
Style Kerosene Lamp 1:11am "I photographed her everyday for almost 3 years" -- David Bailey
The small things HAVE added up In-house Bolo ties Glossing Over Violent Playground...
Dated fashion, dated thoughts Emerging from isolation Learning Facilitator
A tree’s gaze Less than partners more than friends Incessantly Hitting refresh There are no reparations for the psychological damage of capitalism
Stick to archiving Heads of the Colored People by Nafissa Thompson-Spires Friday Black by Nana Kwame Adjei-Brenyah Tactile References
Landscapes Surveying The Angel (who couldn't fly) The sort you could lure inside with a warm meal Bookmarked content One day everything is dead along the trail the another day it isn’t Pressurized Calibration
11:11am the missing point Itinerant Vociferously Constantly educating others about experiences
Speaking in statements Got the security we wanted not what we needed The Champions Elect
Haven’t we all been fooled Nothing Ever Grows Here Autism Bromide - a trite and unoriginal idea or remark, typically intended to soothe or placate. "feel-good bromides create the illusion of problem solving" 1:11pm
Recess... Sounds effects from a Malaysian video game arcade Reluctance to relinquish some semblance of ourselves for the benefit of the relationship Harrington Jackets We held up broken mirrors to each others faces, seeing only incoherent unformed fragments of our selves
She spoke in a vacant, soulless register Idiosyncrasies Calibrated to societies every whim Just say I’m the babysitter Tom Hannan Stripped and robbed like a dead gunslinger after a shootout H’s “Hwhite”
Rickety Joints Aging Bodies Not beating aging, the Oldsmobile feeling, nothing healing Dilapidated Beats
Strange beginnings Can’t remember where I got this… IG feels like cheap plastic Hard Time Lovin Blues Now I see how it happens, the walls collapsing like a deflating parachute in kindergarten gym class. Of course straddling the line so often, this was just the the space I occupied Average instruments Dishwasher Music
Crashing waves Cartographic Constellations Compost Breathe Prom Date Reflections, words, mirrors Finding your people A different version of the same fucked up predicament The Decisive Moment Louis Pasteur said, “Chance favors the prepared mind.” Leaving Las Vegas, Stormy Monday
Symbols Skim Zine Take more shots Still Curious Areas of darkness There was at least age, and a fair amount of common sense to buffer him from insecurity Sempervivum Familial Transitions
Hockney Tree Eno Prompts We figure things out, teach eachother to swim, flow and make it to the shore "Nature abhors sameness" -Buscaglia “To be helped toward realizing your love is to be loved” -Buscaglia Radical Chic Unfortunately we only exist to te extent that we share (but I’m here and I can see me) 1:11pm, 11:11pm
Finding your own version of history, history finding you Neville Lancelot Goddard- Goddard viewed the Bible as a parable of the human psyche as opposed to a record of historical events. Therefore, Goddard did not believe in an external God who answers prayers, but rather that "[y]ou are the creator". Carlos Castaneda Ernest Fiene Hedy O'Beil Holding doors for strangers
No sense Obligations Private-Public Mapping Icebreakers Strangers and books
disclosure The Preoccupation Moonshots Tuning, frequency, getting a signal What it amounts to (Life) Light + Dark Academia
Egret Egress Leo Buscaglia Start with a sentence, then flow 222 - Angel number 222 signifies a new beginning. (beginning of run) Physical newsletter, printed matter The New Thought Movement Art suffering for Art Sharon Stone in The Quick and the Dead He only made sense in present tense "I am leaving this place, they know me now. They look at me. I’m going north to the river." Doris Lessing, A Letter From Home
Daydreaming It’s hard to express everyday Anarchocapitalists Slow Solidarity Windows of Dialogue You can’t advocate for non binary ppl and at the same time think in a binary way Binary thinking in a non-binary world Imagination is the driving force in human nature. But it is likely to run wild and escape into the chaos of endless desire, unfulfilled longing and alienation - VW 777
Down the hillside Life’s path What others are doing just isn’t part of the curriculum Binge worthy ppl Relationship Anarchy Anarchy That word context again
Racism has gotta be the dumbest thing ever invented Family Feuds Happenings, occurrences, scales of situations Sun Ra x Sartre It is better to deal with people who have intuition now. You see they don’t know what they are doing. The ones who do know what they are doing, haven’t proven anything. - Sun Ra
Whatever makes you stronger Affordable Housing, Affording Renos Q Influencer tipping point Ian’s passing Digressions New existential arguments ie COVID Climate change, the British fashion cycle Tangibility
To Think Being Wishy Washy Asking Hard Questions Catching Up Seasonal Forgiveness Company/Relational Flow Selling is about consistency. Life is about inconsistency. If you’re trying to consistently sell yourself you’ll live a difficult life, let people accept your inconsistencies
Rickety legs chasing a lost cause Blowing hot and cold Waiting for better weather Expectations Winning and Losing The Absurdist Salesman (another working title) This is earth, it will never be heaven”. - Solnit Deep calls to deep, she knows who I am all right, she’s not foxed by the trimmings - Doris Lessing (England vs England) The grass isn’t greener if you don’t use fertilizer
Space for new beginnings Retracing Steps Lessons The old shoe store pitch Seeking Equal
Croce Aesthetics Life as a beautiful process Acts of Service Expiry Dates Left Despair, Adversarial Activism
Dollar Store Stockings Things moved at their own pace but occasionally a gust of wind would sweep through town and speed things up Space for roots, room for growth
Every different me Eyes closed wonder, world unknown, a spell put under Meaning to the monotony Preoccupation for the predicament Passing (Tessa Thompson)
Beck Adjustment of the Eyes Respectability Politics HD HD The imaginary finish line That keeps on Moving The deep crease In the sand You think Will be soothing
Aimless Hustle Don’t change minds, open them Some movies don’t end well Rotters and Ranklers
To move about freely or at will : WANDER To speak or write at length or in detail Act ? Scene ?: Where does this moment stand in the play of life? How was my rendition? Working with limited functionality Getting out before recognition (of the other)
Crisis of Character Bad Actors "Life begins on the other side of despair" Sartre Grass Bags Mindful Servitude Getting off the Wheel (of capitalism) Shoot em up sequels
Winter Scents Seasoning Pining Foreign Football Supporters Here, but not here eluding even myself
We all have tickets to the same show Sequence of Events Respectability Politics Dancing in ambiguity The other side of the tracks I felt that I could split the time in half with a cigarette Mirrors and Dichotomy I asked for moments not eternity Slowca Either composing or confronted with the composite…. Constantly
Urban Fishermen Smarmy "Curiosity is as much the parent of attention, as attention is of memory." -Richard Whately Insecure The grass was never green, not how it seemed
Commitment to Details The Dark Arts Interminable Cutting a temperate figure Wheel of Fortune That was the climax… Now they would descend; both, individually, to their own to rapturous applause
…From all of nature “Adventures”
Resistance to behavior change Another hard fought day “Agonies are one of my changes of garments” -Whitman Seemingly Similar Issues Are the plants actually growing?
Slow Walks Bing Crosby - Plenty to be Thankful For On Call (for life) Shock Corridor - Samuel Fuller Abstinence Season
Tomorrow Depersonalizing the world I never see she true self Things need to get weirder
Bollocks, Balderdash, False etc Amplified Normality You know the calypso — VS Nailpaul The power of 10 - Charles & ray Eames Home and Away Ties At all, at all, at all
Eh eh (shock) Sanctuaries Moving against the seasons "But think of how an artist or a revolutionary takes what’s given and pushes against the status quo, looking for and revealing new realities that nobody sees yet. I am suggesting that we could all be artists and revolutionaries of our own lives and environments." --Polley
BSS Mutual Reliance The Other Edge of the diving board Being of service Masochism Scary similarities Feigning
Esthero,Frou Frou Aldous Harding Carl - Naming Anxiety Bouts of Doubt 3rd Door Helps and Hinderances
Inherent nature Gaps in thought Love is a work of art a beautiful tragedy that will never be complete
Words for what we’ve felt, feel and may feel Sitting in a different space in the same mind Not having the words Creating within chaos and strife
Monk Pulling clothes out of the closet Peeling away layers of severity Civilization of seekers 555
Sun waves Blundered This is a loser we’re dealing w Foreign and old Left holding the bag Pointless adjustments I was awaiting an interesting Oasis Thoughts turned over Patience It’s depends what is of relevance, whether it adds further reticence
Avoid Passengers Holding Pattern No Fixed Agenda Minute Memories Minute memories Childhood dreams Things now As then It seems
Saving Wetlands Simon says… Silence says Innocence, hindsight Suicide by job Good gray There was another place we dreamt of when we were young Less to look at Breaching the castle gates Choosing the right characters, setting, plot for my story
The house you grew up in Delirious days
Reflecting on seasons Sane Enough Conflicting realities Planetary Friction Suffocating in an open field, claustrophobic in an empty room Subconsciously challenging previous reads
Flying close to the sun No derivatives The last of a silly generation Completing thoughts Season of Solitude
Dating Dialectic Coulda Occurreds Will dissolve The following message Regarding similarities “Mad cuz the life I lead is twice your speed” Frozen Revelations Season of decay Astro cartography
Trusting the Process Perches The news cycle and other sounds Lofty Goals It’s happening Anticipating intangibles What could be happening in the other room
Pointlessness Hybrids At this point utilitarian Long slow reels Camus Notebooks Knopf Idle minds staring at reflections... Idle mines waiting... Idling... Sweeping away time laying in these leaves pllows of the earth feeling weight feeling girth Lift away the pain today When you really think about it And think about it And think about it And think about it And think about it Becomes what you think about it What you believe about it To be true We’ve been staring At our reflections For some Time Lacks And Of fulfillments Apparents From our parents But still We want to be parents?
Changing Seasons Idle Mines Progression, Succession SS - The Room- Arrival @ and reconciliation of a point in time Standing on each other’s reflection Debenhams
Chasing familiar(familial) traumas 100 percent when 10 will do The Motions Head Space Aerials
Creating an environment to find answers guidance from the environment Working with the present information and improving the present situation Doing others work
Affordable Quality Money is the rich man's fertilizer to make the grass on the other side of his guilt. Bullet Points Concentrating
Similar Scenes Deducing Experiences Probing Questions Capturing the moon (sign) No checking bags Everyday Renaissance all day reticence Resentment Manifest Bookstore Probing from the Periphery Passing the point of pity Charity Cases Developing narratives congruent with reality Propitiating Alive to the 60s Having the awareness to be self aware is enough self awareness
Life itself has made many attempts at my life. Bullets, and landmines of anxiety unsettle me daily Healingincolor.com sensory motor therapy Often a conundrum for one Rising with the sun Being true to Nature A conundrum for one Rising with the sun Staying true To Nature If it is Existence which Ails us It is the vehemence At which it encroaches Which is most frightful Life is a relentless Attack Bullets Bombs Of anxiety Being thwarted Incessantly Having Patience w/the Nascence The New Now Unknown
Reparations Security Tank Respectfully disagreeing Getting shit done music Military deserters, police deserters
Present Tense Subconsciously Parasitic The Cause For whatever reason… I’m reticent… Slowly turned On a dime Memories now frozen In time Still Expiring Love retiring No narratives To create The story Written Unwritten Sitting Alone Feeling Missing
Outlining Narratives Equal Parts Simultaneous Rebellion Freedom and Support Social Subterfuge Private Manifestations Public Journal
Circumnavigating Chronic Circumlocution Acts of Penance Acts of Peace Solace in the Knowledge Fortresses of Futility Silent Muse Emotional Staff Bad RnB The role of hindsight No new knowledge I've been pensive hesitant happenstance I've acquired your sense of reticence
Halloween Beer Certainty in uncertain times Fundamental choices Fromm —-Escape from Freedom, Man for Himself Frenzy to the friendzone What was spoken What was said Words past, Dead Shadows In the soul Memories Shrinking Old Stretching through time Experience Blinds and Omits Depths of what Is cared to Admit Thoughts trespass But alas We get a pass At this juncture Many things become Apparent The role of parents And anything evading Awareness Make what you Want of it But avoid Alcohol Any Deterrents For the transgressions At large Play the pity card
Upset locals Implacable thought adopted instead of developed opinions So much angst its not that there are no good matches, its just that nobody matches eachother, its effort, its choice In the trenches Everything in b/t Immortality through art, creation, progression of thought Please don’t thank me for my service to the cause of your revolution ive witnessed And suffered the pain of rebellions and witnessed the new constitution there is no consolation only contribution Further demise There are places we must go so we Know. Contrary to the crowds, dear to where the heart steers. Clear through the clouds Perspective.
Illusions Hilly people Guarded life, safeguards Ramparts Hands on learning, hands off matters Previous routes Quiet lakes still air healing heartache despair Believe me It’s not Serendipity Truth be told Your love is Old Expired Harbouring fugitive thoughts Change for The better Still No better Nation of two now one constituent, dreams In the wind a new constitution
Bad weather Today was that morning, awakened, slow weathered, laborious, laughable Conditions Bordering inexcusability As a result Siloed thoughts
Habitat Enough Adequate amounts Becoming Bland "existential frustration is neither pathological nor pathogenic" -- Frankl A good muse Negating necessities Everyone expresses the true nature of their being everything you see is as it should be projections suppressions are all expressions
Leave it alone Abolishing assumptions and expectations Privilege, and proximity to poverty If you can't grow together, you can't be together. You just grow apart Buyers remorse Syncing up Rebels just want some clarity on the matter (the obvs one at hand) The inescapable vise of human desire can only be loosened by building a personal constitution ideally built on unity but absent of contingency The price of insecurity, fragility, life Unconscious rebellion = existential crisis
Fall colours, falling colours, colouring the forest floor MUN vs LIV…Theory vs Practice The impossibility of desire Keep zooming out Turnover Ripping Through Portals
Coming or going Personal constitutions, withholding, notwithstanding Real time vs in time synthesis
Have a good time on earth The tipping point of isolation Further subjects Inputs Should be severe
Roads less traveled Taking things literally Just before the unmasking Those willing to understand you No idling With rebellion awareness is born - Albert Camus Scrap your notes Farm to gram Natures prominence Nietzschean malaise Browsing space Is fashion dead? A graveyard of Galliano’s? You taught typefaces Futura I imagined a future Us You taught about Futura I thought about A future Us
Autumn Leaves Traces, blends of colour Doing the work, or finding the work Balancing acts, and performative everything All the burners are on
Sunset Rollercoaster Dictating distance Crossroads Keep writing Ellington Dreams We’re all healing, always Arrivals and departures Affirmations and consequences
Just add pickles Red flags and flight risks The right sacrifices Ignited vices New age romanticism
First dates Arbitrary anniversaries or small victories Aristocratic morality How deceitful is introspection? Big day at the race$ Daily Manic Maelstroms
Bad haircuts Metaphorical finish lines Repetition Bellicose Ground zero lighting and rickety doors Oblivious feats Crossover hits Mostly deadpan
Trick Mirrors — to live and die before a mirror - Baudelaire Performing Learning and understanding through natural experiences Our stories are interesting Necessary embellishments Ok let’s play this game!
Ones you can count on Good catches Tom Sachs Different concepts, same intonations
Paying dues Associated Pressure Annual out and backs The shackles of past vantage points Reverting to the familiar Overrunning days Arbitrary happiness Previous vestiges
Thanksgiving Mostly terrible Astrological New Year Too much to write with invisible ink Some people just take their privilege and run with it
Ticking boxes Planning and scheduling Vacations from the mind Concepts clicking and unlicking Whatever hasn’t started hasn’t finished
Fresh sheets of paper Clean slate Wisterias Morning Glories Resiliency Familiar patterns Kaitlin Polachek 2012 vs 2021 Self awareness gains Here yesterday Here today Effortless Ephemeral Transience
Hot Pink Caps Lock
Dead trees Lightning Decomposition The alive and the aloof Perspectives Edward Weston
Reliving and redoing trauma Lighting options Priors Tangential conversations
Less notes Primitivism vocals Washing dishes Making things cute Conversations with Charlie Rouse Second Gen exercise
No go zones Dismissing context Impressions Being a shit Appreciating solo acts (Juan Waters, Nyssa)
Anxiety free days/hours Bits that don’t land Escaped contexts The painful part
Fresh madness Communicating competing thoughts Hopping fences and egging houses Listening to music and getting dressed
Going solo Jumping the queue Bessie Smith, Billie Holiday Unearthed hours Kicking and screaming Instagram advice!?
Unintended paths Emily Remler - In a 1982 interview with People magazine, she said: "I may look like a nice Jewish girl from New Jersey, but inside I'm a 50-year-old, heavy-set black man with a big thumb, like Wes Montgomery." Hidden despair Stencils
Gossips Flow w/ me Baby! Doing things unconsciously Stream of conscious works
Any time in nature Keeping pace and being consistent Worse bad days Flowers, fractured, grids and colour Running up a hill, and out of breath
Baggy clothing Insecurity Footage Unknown capabilities Someone to ride out the wave (of life w)
Mettle Sitting still, moving mind No hard feelings, you’re just a pattern I’ve repeated
BIPOC starting points Metroid- adventures on an unexplored planet Evergreen Learning If you don’t know your power you can’t light your path The Other
Trust Tactility Catching up with oneself
Getting over something or someone 22 - preschool grownups, and emotional prenups Back in the sixties Childhood expectations Brown Thrashers
Big Learning Vestige Curiosity leaves you privy Setting things in motion Abandoning self actualization
Give and take The irony of presence Lingering in uncertainty Human condition Self sabotage at its finest Hard Bop Hotel
Parais Space mind vs space in heart Indefinitely defining self Passing moments, passing photos a minute, a second ago
The place to meet again Appetite for treachery Coming to light Opening to interpretation Stopping me cold turkey
Hot pavement Additional layers of uncertainty Writer’s block and blocks of fervent writing Pete Turner, Reid Miles At times is in our minds Distant Fraught Negativity Confusion caught Here Residing Many Many Moments before Subsliding into Solace This
Aging chassis Promise Lockdown Life... Reality What goes without saying Maps and Shadows
Never having started Long hot shower Addicted to life Mutiny
Fashion, fashion, fashion Minimalism That guys high Volume guy (sales dudes) Pain quilted into armour
PEC TV replies, and conversations Keep refreshing screen
Beating a dead horse Black August SIM City Contextual suitability (fit vs compatibility) Overstaying astrological seasons
We get into it, but what are the bones of it Double exposure… first impression, then second Not a leader not a follower
Certain strains Laps of life Life indefinitely As fast as things are moving forward They remain the same Indefinitely
Images and chimes, memories within time Apathy, dimmed lights, bright bulbs
Could have beens Normalized displacement
Sobeys managers Advancing thru the stages Incidental lessons The plunder ain’t done The split second we stopped looking at the world with wonder Descent into the maelstrom- Poe
Where my mind goes to take shit
That shroomy summer Emotional foraging What you can’t unsee what you can’t unlearn Passed cemeteries Getting turned around in the dark
Language Police vs Police Limits Tee Corrinne It’s okay to be broke Soft Spots for Curious People The varying repercussions of “bad luck”
Seaside rocks Chinatown Bargain centres
Full Moon (Post) Dinner Deep fried delinquents
White space, silences Anything less than me Year 3000 The Unknown (what’s out there) uncertainty Charades 22 - partners wank Re: keep time, rhythm section, recording steps Voluntary depression
Bud Powell Light years ahead Automaticity and Flow Principle of Least Action Separation preceding synthesis Showing up The Toothbrush Technique Big 4, Flat 5 We have followed similar paths events A lot of thoughts Equal Imagining Meeting the same kinda People So it’s no surprise Seated here hearing And having this colourful conversation Today someone will say serendipity Tomorrow we’ll just call it You, me, just us humans Forty and I figure Same as pops Drunkin Running on Sentence on Running on Fumes This is old news Birth paper prophecy
Oporto International Students Dropping the keys Nauseous photography Cultural rebirths Seasons of collective grieving
Blue Compartmentalization 22- inhibiting insights introspection Haste Let’s be sure about this For now Sometimes hasty Within this market Of course this is due course Abandoning obvious obligations constraints and chaste In favour of what we favour For now
Trial and error Texture of feeling Back to school
No parking In love when all of the world matters Optics
Sudden sentiments Life’s obvious oscillations I don’t hear the morning birds from my place The space where I wake up Heart displaced Before My mind awakes I wonder what for you And me awaits Before breakfast I think What’s next? A date? What life will we create? I hope before zoom That we’ll meet way before noon Or I’ll at least hear from you Soon I’ll admit others come third and I think of you every second Even though I’m your Second An afterthought
Switchbacks Waves of independence Savings Articulating vehemence Only tears are from onions
the advantages of ignorance
30 yo self Hench The Urban Dictionary
Seeing what you want to see Playing w ppls perceptions Microblogging Long drawn out processes Creative convulsions?
Pepper Adams, Art Pepper Pet names Measured reticence The sort of person you avoid in bad weather So nobody actually cares about old or poor people Life is a beautiful process Deadstock thoughts It’s me an earth sign...organic over synthetic, techniques over technologically, weed over coke… jk jk
Topography The Fall of Man Superfluous You’ve been on the scene I know what you mean Ive suffered you’ve lost We both know The cost
Severing tethers Moving on Sunday sundown Down
Familial obligations Will work with what Little joy you can Muster, Of course this world makes us all flustered Unmeshed in frustration Spending days dazed Shallow are days Ignorant Inept All dogs go to heaven But on different Deficient wings They are sent
Tagging along Hot Blue What have we been whittled down into Over the course throughout the years Riding along Others hopes hot blue tears Miles gone hanging On To this momentO More you Than I This eve.. Netflix, press enter, fall asleep
Plunder Dogs maintaining flow First seating (reading) Thinking about today talking About tomorrow Insights Anxiety Nothing but sorrow Talking about whats gone today Thinking about yesterday How things have strayed Further And furthermore Insights anxiety Sorrow The sort of history we keep Is enough to put people to Sleep The names that stay Plastered to buildings and Buildings Built Homogeneously Honestly Ed couldn’t even keep his place Subconscious Undertones Speak beneath Sounds Tongue licking off teeth Words choosed and Chewed on Ingested Settling Uneasy Indigested There’s dancing in some distant far out future A Utopia Escapades Janets Rhythm Nation While in this nation now Present People Howl Towards the Moonlight At Atrocities the Everyday Wishing for yesterday
Trails Personal Maintenance Work (in progress) No more bright ideas Bookmark (freeze) for later, frozen ideas
Face plant Falling down, getting up Humbling moments Healing scars Embarrassment Passing cars The Second law of thermodynamics today i planned to run exactly forty minutes i passed sunburnt Auburn ferns two mourning doves, a frog, a cardinal, rabbit, and when i lost track of time a bee stung me in the ass time elapsed, stopped 40:42:29 enough to suffice feel alive 40 nice today i planned to run exactly forty minutes i passed sunburnt ferns two mourning doves, a cardinal, a frog and a rabbit daydreaming, fun when a bee stung time elapsed stopped 40:42:29 sufficient a tale of the years 40 alive and still relatively efficient
Basement apartments Interpreting different iterations versions of the same person mediation, temperance, steady incremental accumulation perpetual thought machines earthly and obitual orbit
Humble defeats Black captions Warped structures Skewed navigation Checking out early W. Somerset Maugham Solar Flash Dwarf Sunflower Seeds
2nd chances Redux Twist and shout 1st steps of a revolution
Choosing which hill to die on Coming and going, calling and responding Blunt humour Push and pull What does it says about Sags? Hyping vs helping Self navigation, self awareness… gps vs non
Optical illusions What we choose to see (in someone)
Equal parts Marrying modalities and manifestos Content within the content Happening to me happening to you Open source thoughts Campus store Back and forth our thoughts go Paying attention in every Direction Marrying modalities Imperfections (Those typical types of contentions) Manifestos and destinies Eclectic aesthetics Departures And potentialities Our hearts know Which direction To flow
Vonnegut & Finale Racks Just when you thought it was over Better bed Just had another thought in my head here Words ain’t ready Rote This house is a merry modest mausoleum A gift and graveyard I don’t ask to be here But I’m here
Gus When you understand These words You’ll get the connection Eyes eavesdrop Dog eared The page stops …… I’ve had to wait to say it And mean it The way I feel it Tenants
Friday the 13th sunshowers Hopscotch Singing in the rain Flowers blooming from loves pain Like children we love this game Tanya Harding bangs Gold tipped fangs Deep in my heart
Striating Managing anxiety is just a game of whack a mole A Guide to Self Mismanagement I’ll be there second as long as you put yourself first Departed dismissed These times now We hardly kiss Sadness parted new words standing alone Absinthe chilled to the bone
Shackled in neoliberal idealism Found object interpretation Further assists w growth I’m not the first bad man To invade this land Recent this region Seen in a number of Manners Misappropriated For the sake of blind Ambition
Silent treatment Things better left unsaid
Muffdiving Acceptable number of days suffering, languishing, questioning per week 1-2... 3 might be a bit much Mutual strain Apologies for unconscious behaviour Homogenized minds How many more moons Waxing waning Pain remaining
Auburn Ferns One rabbit in One rabbit out No cardinals Snaking back One direction Auburn ferns burning In the sun
McLuhan Ethos Swing Back Relationships and flow balance bt freedom and security not too easy not too hard, dogs playing not too fast not to slow Hot Blue, Cool Blue Construction of other bodies
of or resembling a serpent (as in form or movement) July 28th changes, growth scoring moot points If the case is imperfection, imperfection can be painted many many ways Closed Captioning
Infix Echo of the Thing Crowd work Nature or the bottle Years of dictatorship You must’ve hated It The dichotomy The distance distinctly Lack of autonomy But You’ve been a friend To me What I’ve done to Create some Fun Is insinuate you As someone to date You’re a picture of my Repressed emotions dressed Just how I’d like With an appetite For the exact same things And notions That move We’re all part of the same human race From generations gone Centuries Decades down The same human race From years gone by Months elapsed Weeks passed The same human race From days ago Minutes minimized To this second Sitting here Takin a shit While the shit goes down It’s under control For now I’ll enlighten you Provide some insight On some of the lighter aspects Of the going’s on Don’t expect the same things But something real Feelings, observations Without reservations About what is incorrect Politically because As you see The joke Is on me
Crusaders Going backwards Ways of seeing second essay Big dick fashion Unity of vision An artful incision Of the minds Over time Hearts entwined Beauty becoming The scales have tipped on this Journey I’ve been aware of this Sagittarius, For a while It’s been a trial Tribulations Insinuations This is the psychology That has gotten Hold of me Contemporary Schicht Which flicks The wick And fuels the fires Explains repressed Desires I’m excited when You’re on this street Each time we meet A different Feet Every Session A step A Progression Towards…. It takes certain Dexterity To flow Safe to say life is A bunch of Bipolar currents Wave after wave
Jazzstrology - Virgo on drums, percussion Aesthetic, moral constitution and the nation of two Saneism I hear your repressed emotions They aren’t delusional Notions Nothing obscene Nothing I haven’t seen These embarrassing thoughts Shame rather forgot Is an institution Of our constitution Looking in awe As the pain the memories Thaw Into summer tears August Rain Beautiful Heartfelt Pain The moment you start guessing And start question What’s been woven into This scheme That obliterates your Dreams They’ll tell you your Manic Trust me on this one We’re gonna spin The wheel of Fortune The minute we kiss We’ll make something Profound of this Rooted in our souls Renowned for now Hearts will tell us How Hear nothing Convoluted Sometimes life is best Suited for strife Under a knife Slicing and cutting Heads and elbows Butting At every point To be made Against the Grain
Suppression of character by capitalism, racism, patriarchy etc Geographic inception Good connections You’re right babe Deep but not nonsense. The nascence makes sense We live in a deadzone Where we must Suppress our manic States In order to accommodate Those above Someone we love Live sanitized lucid Lives And live in a deadzone I’ve seen women stuck in mans cave With the illusion of love A burning blaze Embers of expectations Scatter A hazy malaise #AD Anxious undercurrents Are the current trend These things they say Move us In the wrong way If wrestlemania and Royal rumble were combined this Would explain The jumble in our minds Yes I know “C’est la vie” “That Life” We’ve clearly established that Nobody is getting Out of this bitch in one piece But can we at least Tag in A few good men Women Not grown children Into office raise the pitch The volume On some bass behaviour Think rationally Cry Think rationally Cry Think rationally Die We’re not always the best mechanics but if we know the car well enough we can hands over the wrench and let others make a few tweaks here and there. If we bring a different model into the shop, alert the mechanic immediately! A beautiful beech grows Crooked, fixed, rooted near the road Oddly But better suited For a forest of Fellow trees Immutable For longevity
Turning around Ritual differences Thoughts Turnaround Retreat Paranoid of Society’s Defeat This is how the story goes As everyone no Longer grows All potential Soaked by torrential Down more ideas go So idiots speak And we continue The same old horror show I will never tell anyone To reign it in Or make Sense Because I know The cents That have made nonsense out Of what we Actually Feel fabricating What is real To their ideal
Mary Wollstonecraft Compassion and the underdog Loss leader Graffiti, the writing on the walll 80s 90s suburban design Let me congeal this idea HP Jazz Festival — the changes Death ain’t mash up de fete Re programming who is to be envied, really rich characters The destruction of capitalism is the deconstruction of perfection — a capitalist crisis of character Dandelions and echinacea seasoning sprinkled over hearty There is a lot of cosmic energy in the air This can be good and this can be bad Cats have been fighting And dogs igniting Every Last bit of history Colston is no longer Coastin
What happens when you can no longer make money off the madness? The 42k millionaire The coast is anything but clear
Roped in Obsession with the unimaginable Bland mundane Better and fine, but lost mind Pigeon limping as I was thinking Putting faith in the contrary not just what my mind has fabricated something imaginary Marriage of needs (communion) You’re fully your hopes but not with me I understand this is love This is tragedy Let them sing you a love song By the campfire As I Retire I owe you my love I owe my world It’s revolutions It’s swirls On the rebound As things compound
default position resume regular programming a distance apart on the same path Event horizon Dangers of enlightenment I know I won’t disagree (w author) It’s been assumed You’d resume Your position This stance is not happenstance Just another chance At what may have been As things were never before Seen In this light As you tripped thru The nite from Mourning into Morning a battle A mighty fight Head out of the sand Now you stand Heart full Default position In your sacred land
Wee wide wonderful world Fabrication of imagination Balance of Bullshit It’s paper peels For every passer by, letters of glorious days gone by Crooked as it stands The words still Land at its feet For the mind Of wanderers to greet, Ponder in awe, and Wonder
My thoughts will take flight Abandoned bucket list I can’t even begin Cloud hunt Edna St.Vincent Millay Heart anatomy matters Right where the soil has been compacted This,is where my heart first impacted Seated on a log on the Trail to nowhere (Cardinals applaud)
What you see is what you get (for now)
unlikeness Ecosystem vs Economic system Might be one thing might or the next,u dunno the flex Not how you enjoy the world.. how you THINK about the world Love — intersection bt philosophy + creativity… the marriage of aesthetic philosophy… tragic romance of … Cymbal Crash It’s you I view In awe ahhh Wonder Inspiration and Aspiration Able to avoid And suppress Limitations Forever impressed My love is No jest So I will Continue to invest This heart Within My chest
Spinoza Tangential transference Bioluminescence Maintaining a steady diet of dichotomy ‘I’m still standing’ Generations duped into stupendous Two things Catch twenty Two things Can be entirely true This is the dilemma Of the Dichotomy Dripping in piss From the top Rungs, from some dude's Bladder, like most Duped Into a stupor A Stupendous Malaise, all The days A roll of the dice Trying not to slip, trip on black Ice
Editor Set — laneway orange Opposite of a seekers Old growth, slow growth, sustenance Release point pitching tennis throwing Spinoza Tangential transference
Notice Mary Jane Sterling
floating nudes soldiers going off to war Presence
Submissions How much to ask from one day? Mystification! Also appearing in Self collaboration collaborative self study She averted her gaze… consciously
Beverly Hills We are all Judges is Loggerheads Per diem Perspicacity Facts over feeling, events over emotions Formulated ig soap/drama channel Moment of poignancy Things finished when we started to touch the future Aminata
Plasticine Balzac Zorba the Greek Dizzying affects I picked up an old picture Of me facing A mirror (But with) U nearer See me clearer I picked up a new picture
Isolated ideas Inception Amicable salesman Obscured by many different things Give context to unclear and apparently chaotic I’ve had this isolated Idea of you in mind Frozen in time Everything felt Will soon melt Ideas can’t grow in isolation. They need a community of ideas to grow with. Ideally these ideas would communicate well with each other and foster virtues of courage, patience etc
Postcards Incandescent Incipient Incinerate No fixed address Migrating Schedules Dreaming vs The Event Zero waste writing Paying attention to your own curriculum, creating defining your own abstract representations and associations Love Conflated UpDown ElatedAnd Deflated
Bergson, Lacan Lean back (from leaning hard into) Productivity=good/bad Derisory Good WIP Inculcating concepts Something deep In those derisory eyes Buried beneath the dark Surface, stewing Brooding and becoming Something Pain
W/Y’ve arrived in a safe place Overreaching, overflowing There’s more to be curious about! Clipped and staged gesticulate “I feel like…” Common denominator gazelles future design
Splurging fountains Marching towards fun and funeral Connor, Lloyd, Josh Brolin Honeysuckle Bookmarks, folds, archivist AHEPA 64 Away from fun towards a funeral Hasbro to has been A mechanical March
Obey the intellect —Michaelangelo Cardinal Song 5 Sunflowers slumped unsure but surer than sunlight Too blasted haunted! Is so ya get on!? cheupidness Things to take a look at… Closely 70yo bf and gf Natures song repeating (too) Fast
Running Spread... Running Thread Runners protested and were up in arms over the ruling, their legs remained… I thought it was after 9 by a mile The morning was gay blue bright And greeted me With a smile Tolerable chaos, acceptable disorder Cortex and Context The bed bounces when you speak The verse cadence A dance So unique Socrates, soccer Abstract subject slants Running rants Words of romance all Erudite parlance
elan vital It’s up for grabs now Open season Catch and release I wanna see your funhouse The happy triumvirate fshs sun moon rising Might as well pay the pennies for the pleasure Sandwich paste
Try not to make things too easy Aleatoric in·du·bi·ta·ble
Overt oblong odd blog Jingle jangle Push the cloud away see the cloud from afar Looking at creativity as a mathematical problem to be solved which then dissolves into another equation to be solved again… The perpetual movement from goal to goal attainment Cogitatio press
The only easy way is your way living archive definition, conclusions, objective Premonitions Alice in Wonderland
Throttled landing Frozen in time Anxious times await The answer is near The path is clear
epistemology Black and blue hues these are the clues Blood let
malediction WIP, LIP black creek under the net Heron flying west
Sho good eatin and Fanon Instances of inner utterances Life started over as if everything before was a trial run Mykola Bazhan Gypsy moths, birch trees, meekness, gracefulness foliage Some colours never see the light of day they remain silhouettes a backdrop
Summon the silent voices Argument is stating facts, what has happened, a discussion is questioning what can happen. Nonfiction vs fiction. Non-fiction is a region or a revision of past failures, a world of fiction is a world of possibilities. Give as much criticism as you take no more and no less Antithesis is the catalyst for synthesis
tennis - runner Looping
Another slow burn Rough edges Killdeer, railway pigeons the stuff brains dreams are made of Feeling sick to stay healthy
Mind in a bind Brainstorming What rests in a funny realm There are words that must rest, humble Unaddressed Remaining, and raining In the mind Reservoired In between Reserving what it is Exactly You mean Lines that dress All your Hearts Stress But yes when The dam breaks All Those words Those words Will make em shake
Few established facts here, this is a fact the mind runs free principally sometimes there's spotty reception
Piracy and sharing What’s been polished Abstract, syllabus, coursework, field trips, curriculum, booklist, library, notes, yearbook, photo essays, dossiers, research materials, field research The ball rolls stops, the wind blows, the ball rolls. We remember what motion true natural motion feels like Importance of listening Travelled round the world in my head not dead xxx miles The road is over in a forest Lined with lush leaves Shadows upon dirt which everyone sees When you stop for moment and admire the breeze you won’t be fooled by the shadows of the trees
Before I die Above and beyond Mourning Dove Apathy is the enemy Dialectic relationships Before I die, lll tell you a lie, you can fly This may be true or false depending on who you are High Above like a mourning dove Before I die, I will teach you how to fly high above the mourning doves so the pain will subside and you can carry on enjoy the ride Introspective material is what the lies at the heart of curiosity.
obsolete its ironic that irony is a pleasure tragic not unique that hardest thing to see is me ourselves its a dull affair mindless servitude is the enemy of imagination
Wee podunk towns Cinema of dreams Farming failure
The best art mimics life in an impersonal way Mom + Dad stick or twist other quotes, Murdoch two truths bad actors Buy in or sell out Doubts I can see the end of democracy in a room with a view point of view for you distress test, duress, supress imagination sentences of similar sentiments both god and bad moms and dads can make us sad Hey aren't ya glad? Buy insell out of course there's always doubts
Here we are wandering through an enchanted forest. Alive, in awe, and agape. Blind to the roots, perhaps we might trip stumble and meet our fate Here we are wandering through an enchanted forest. Alive in awe, wonder and agape. Blind to all the roots. will we trip stumble, meet beauty, or a sad fate. Here we are wandering through an enchanted forest alive in awe, wonder and agape. Blind to all the roots are we gonna trip stumble, meet beauty, or a sad fate A Mom, Dad Surely glad! Also sad
I awakened to the morning sun hitting the bricks of the nearby building like a prison searchlight, and I could imagine the tenants scurrying away to their jobs like inmates. Prisoners blinded by the sight of yet another monotonous day. It would be safe to say many at this point have lost their way.
Soaked to transparency Chestnuts Luxury Guilty undertones, concealed shame Conkers conceal Chestnuts that lie in the shade, A small luxury for my hurt pain and shame Bonkers you are to lay all the blame
Running through the woods Taking liberties, and exercising freedom Let's see how far we can go, in our own direction before we need to mention "do I still have your attention". its summer camp for you and me, feel free to climb a tree How far can I go, in my own direction before someone has to mention do I still have your attention? Its recess for me, I'd rather go climb a tree
Invisible Burdens Paul Klee Clara Haskil This Very Earth by Erskine Caldwell Pasquinade Faulkner Wild Psalms 'Primary Suspect" Dylan Thomas "Portrait of the Artist as a Young Dog"
The Millwall Bushwackers are the most notorious football firm associated with Millwall Football One Sport One Country You can't kick a ball, in a foreign language. Listen! The pitch is the same, It is a global game.
Sitting by the fire The various guises of ‘Good’ Mythic Women, old time gossip There are various guises of 'good' in people, however in most cases the 'good' is outnumbered by a litany of undesireable traits. It is quite natural to build myths, just look past these and accept the good but the better choice is to wander through the dark cold forest find the fire and stoke it. If you sit by and hope it keeps you warm you'll just get burned. Some day my prince will come.
Illusive illusion Elusive Development of one’s objective reality , vs having an objective reality imposed on oneself… active resistance to prop Locus of control Subterfuge 'transvaluation of values' (to use Nietzsche's phrase) Bookchin, Nietzsche Love For Sale [Song by Cole Porter] 1940 Love is for sale, and our hearts cannot elude the subterfuge. Propoganda is resistant to denial, and resistance to the vile is simply futile. Ill from illusions of prosperity there is no place for me, you, only the select few. Our Love is for sale.
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Inexhaustible variety of life - Gatsby
Streets ablaze with feats of glory
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Capitalism has thrived because much of the water consumed is heavily contaminated. Survival depends on hydration and its nearly impossible to turn off the tap. In fact its easier to just rebottle and sell it like snakeoil. Advertising is an additive; arsenic, and drinking lead, leads us astray. Imagine brains like brittle Brita's unable to properly filter. "The "doctor" will leave town before his customers realize they have been cheated
apparently I would love them base deprogramming glean into life moral compass
High Park Cognoscenti Rug Cutters- at the Skateland (Photo- Nathaniel Rubel) This Generation of Fatherhood Press Conference Nutty IGallery Entrance “Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.” ― Andre Gide
introspectabilia the idea of perfection kane pigeons
Changing with the seasons
Their Eyes Were Watching God Regardless of the type of mistreatment each faces, the mule exists as a symbol of the abuse that Janie encounters in her marriage to Joe. One of the most powerful metaphors in the novel is the blossoming pear tree. Janie is enchanted by the beautiful tree in Nanny's backyard. Phoebe's got a gun….(Juliette Has a Gun)Metaphor for the perfume, weapon of seduction, or simple accessory of bluff, the “Gun” essentially symbolizes the liberation of women towards men…and sometimes with an aftertaste of revenge…
Seething Lassitude Educable Sober
Reaching into the void of uncertainty w/ optimism or an agenda, worse yet both Speak in secret sacred unconscious, contingency Thoughts swirl around in sleep discursively and anfractuously Life operates at the centre of a kaleidescopic wheel of seemingly coincidental choices and consequences, which occur and reoccur in an anfractuous and discursive manner. To weather the unpredictable nature of these events its safe and logical to have a dogmatic approach, but it can be argued that an antidogmatic approach is perhaps more desirable in order to stimulate rather than stunt curiosity. Over optimistically reaching into the void of uncertainty with an agenda, one which excludes the possibility of new experience is an invitation to stifle curiousity. Iris Murdoch states, ‘One aspect of respecting something is being interested enough in it to try to understand it’. As such curiosity is seen as a matter of respect, breeding curiosity color the kaleidescope, experience... The debate exists in a dream, space Tossing and turning, walking and talking Maybe, maybe not, so many running thoughts Questions and answers, queries and theories. Time to wake up, your secrets are safe
Chrysanthemum Chrusos = Gold Anthemon = Flower Iris — I have a message for you Dame Iris Murdoch Parthenium = Virginal Fresh Oregano Flower bowls Crodino uzu mandarin cocktails city citrus Honey white tea ice cream Chicken Marbellla Le creuset Duralex
Library Music Pseudonyms Design that doesn’t exist on the internet
Recognizing the point of disconnection (from nature, art, self) ‘Imagining is doing, it is a sort of personal exploring’ Murdoch Concrete, cash, and generic sex appeal, are these really the limits of our ideal? Falling into realization, after being lifted into The Real…. The cunning are stunting the stunning imaginations of what we really feel. Nothing in the words, something in the water. Birds in woods, but does anyone even bother?
Speed of Life…Fisher Price, Name Your Price, the market is closed.Fisher Price, Name Your Price, give good advice, the market is closed.
Confidence, crumbled reticence where you stand Whats lies before you is large, bold and grand Hills that ignore you, humbled you land Is that your tail Between your legs and head in the sand?
Streets flooding with exhausts fuming from cars The frantic action, and busyness of bars Business as usual Mondays, a cold and mindless haze, biting the beauty of the city, this "Mundane Maze" Appetites for apathy, feed in archaic shopping, outlets, ignoring outlets, for Everything that is, taken for granted Straight ahead, next, again missing subtext
Autobot Automaton - a moving mechanical device made in imitation of a human being. Neigborhood traffic reminders (to slow down)
Character Sketch... Spanish Father worked in business Apprehensive sense of style (dress) Likes the type of person who wouldn’t ask questions like that Into mythology, Aphrodite, Poseidon
Character Sketch... Dad a cop Habit of coming up with obscure facts almost bragging Been to Spain once Context of character
Tag-a-long Who benefits more from relationship? The Hangar Theory Dorian beauty & morality
Pines woozy lost their way in the summer heat Asking the wrong questions, Misinformation Asking the wrong questions will always leave you in the dark, but even when the light shines you still need to pay attention and watch the trees grow. The woods here appear very dark, and even by day it easy to go astray. In the summer the pines get woozy with heat; needles and branches drop to their feet. The trails traverse every direction but the best way is to pay attention… Everyday things grow but of course they hardly show. and even in the sunlight its hard to see things right. But take your time you'll figure it out This is really the best seat in the house. This one I hardly knew I stood in a dark forest unable to see Roots that Grow overnight beyond my sight Naked Summer pines woozy in the sunlight
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I was probably eight When I couldn’t wait for another date Or even Seven, when Every breath took me To heaven I thought I knew you When every step Felt so true My shoes were Too small, and not What I wanted Most of all For you to know me, and for me To know you I’ve had many steps since admired the views, but today I know, we are True From reception
showing up accountability no hiding vulnerability razzle dazzle Be fine with may or may not be Once stated Actions effecting others Sasha Velour
Feelin Peachie Monday’s feel like the day after Spring Break Shot that didn’t change me Music that did Thanksgiving Citizens arrest law from 1863 repealed in Georgia
Shipping Containers Video Location Anywhere Satellite Map Puerto Rico LA Urban Beach Free Shipping Free Running Global Trade Relay Flowers Single Product/Shirt ‘Print Run Magazine’ Geese
Exiting the dream Entering the void Truth and Plane Trees The Plane truth
Banal platitudes Still just Still air
You’ll never find Me I’ll never find You Neglecters Defectors Private Defectives You’ll never find Me I’ll never find You
GRIT The Emotionally Intelligent Office (dignity, comic strip) Reclaiming feminism from the clutches of the consumerist, neoliberal model Communism has failed. The welfare state of Western democracies has also failed. There is a continual need to balance between a successful, competitive society, and a cohesive, compassionate one. That requires judgment, to strike a bargain or social contract. Each society must arrive at that optimum point for itself. Between the two ends, the highly competitive and the excessively equal, lies a golden mean. This point will move with time and changing values. -Lee Kuan Yew, the former Prime Minister of Singapore "Learn how to learn from those you disagree with, or even offend you. See if you can find the truth in what they believe." "Don’t trust all-purpose glue." PG "Being able to listen well is a superpower. While listening to someone you love keep asking them “Is there more?”, until there is no more." Listening to someone is like listening to a podcast, reading a book, books on tape……
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Taught to avert gaze Nothing about catcher jd Salinger "Doris Lessing + Useful' Cost of books Unalgorithmable - 'what you find vs what finds you' this photo has perspective, this person has perspective. Scope and “the way things were” Bad actors Reduced efficiency, restraint Introspectabilia from internalnet Manual scrolling through a digital world Look at a book and know the story will come together. Not the books story but where you will meet it again in the future Love is in the present, in sometimes very fleeting moments of recognition. There is no looking back or forward on love these are expectations of what could have or could happen. Hope is the only thing you can look back or forward to. Hope you are remembered and hope that you will be remembered. Loved Valu Village has the best selection of books. I like stopping there on runs, (everybody knows the suburban selections are superior). I have thing for vintage paperbacks, and I will run home with up to three, or 600-900 pages. The selection can be overwhelming and sometimes I get anxious, and panicky but more often I scan back and forth through the classics and non-fiction; sunglasses, shorts, and sweat included. Surprisingly nobody ever really pays attention to me. Maybe I looked ridiculous I don’t really know, these are book folk so I guess that makes sense but the situation tends to be a little different at the register where I'm usually greeted by a teenager with massive glasses or dark lipstick, who's crafted a better strategy to avoid eye contact that I ever did at their age. I think my eyesight is fine, but sometimes I have to step back from the shelves to get a better look at everything. Perspective. That's when something jumps out at me! A good copy of Catcher in the Rye, The Great Gatsby and a book of short stories by Doris Lessing. Who up until this point in the story I'd never heard of...
knowledge, breeze knowledge, seas Nature, Heeds you! Acknowledge, the trees Breath Grow (Preparation),Patience)
It’s raining Miss Fortune I need your umbrella Luck doesn’t have one Miss Fortune Miss Fortune Miss Fortune its raining misfortune ‘Luck is an umbrella for Miss Fortune’ Something more than nothing Noteworthy in ways A way to pass Days
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